Rocket; A Chris Brown Story

Chapter 64

Chris

*Buzz, buzz*

I grabbed my phone and looked at it. It was another text from Sabrina.

It's been a week and I haven't seen her. I'll shoot her a text every now and then to check up on her and the kids but right now I just gotta clear my head.

Today I had to go down to the studio to meet up with Jamie Foxx to work on our song "You Changed Me" this shit was so easy to write. As soon as I heard his parts mine just flowed out. Of course it was about Sabrina when she left.

I pulled up and got out and headed in

Chris: wassup

Jamie: Chris my man! What's good with you

We did our handshake then I sat down

Jamie: what's going on man?

Chris: nothing much just working

Jamie: how's everything coming along with your Wife

Chris: ummm, ok, I guess

Jamie: you don't sound too sure about that one. Yall good?

Chris: we just at a roadblock right now. Everything was good then an old situation popped up and I just got mad all over again

Jamie: oh ok, I see

Chris: I know this is something I need to get over so we can move on but I don't know why it's so hard for me to let shit go

Jamie: if you don't mind me asking, what happened

I took a deep breath.

I hated to talk about this shit but I need somebody to talk to or I'll never get over it

Chris: before we decided to work on our relationship she had sex with one of my boys. Somebody I called a brother. That shit hurt me to the core. When she told me, I snapped and did some shit I should've never done but I couldn't help it. I don't know why it's so hard for me to let this shit go

Jamie: as a man I know it's much harder for us to let a lot of shit go but for women it's different. When it comes to emotions we're a lot weaker then women that's why when we fuck up, yeah they'll be mad but they eventually get over it and they give us chance after chance after chance but with us, when she fucks up we ready to throw in the towel, like how could you give somebody what was mine and it's harder for us to get over it. But you gotta think about, ok that was the past and this is now, this is the woman I wanna spend the rest of my life with am I really gonna let this come in between us. Sit her down and let her know how you feel. I know talking about our feeling make us feel like less of a man but that's your woman Yall should be so close it don't even matter. Tell her how that fucked you up. Get it all out and then move on. Yall got babies to raise Yall got so much ahead of Yall. You can't hold this against her forever

Chris: you right, thanks man I appreciate it

Jamie: anytime, anytime....you ready to get in there

Chris: yeah let's go

I got up and headed in the booth and put on the headphones.

Chris: you know what I'm missing, fiending for your kisses, all night on my phone, when you talk I listen, sexing all in the kitchen, breaking all of these dishes, your crib or my bed, it don't make a difference, I'm licking in your body girl, I'm feeling on your booty, now you really wanna do the nasty, girl I love it when you get on your knees you make me disappear like magic, girl you don't even know, all the bitches I let go for you