Rocket; A Chris Brown Story

Chapter 14-

Chris

I don't know what it is but it's like ever since I told Sabrina about how I felt about losing the baby I feel a lot better. I mean I have been holding in my feelings for months now so they were bound to come out sooner than later. I think losing our baby girl just brought us closer. I don't know what it is about Sabrina that just makes me wanna be around here all the time and keep her under me. Most girls I get tired of but not her. I don't know what this girl did to me.

We've been in Rio for a couple days now just enjoying all the sights and the peace. These people party hard over here, but now it's time for us to hop on a plane and head to our next spot. I wanted this to be the best vacation ever for her. I wanted to show her a good time. When we finally have kids she'll tell them about this trip over and over again.

Sabrina: all this flying gone mess me up

Chris: lol but it's worth it though

Sabrina: yeah, we gotta come back to Rio for carnival though

Chris: of course.

Sabrina: so what's next?

Chris: Fiji until the end of the week then we gotta head back to LA I gotta get back to work baby

Sabrina: no I don't want you to leave me

Chris: I don't wanna go but duty calls

Sabrina: I understand. I did just leave my studio on Teyana; I gotta get back to LA too.

Chris: yeah

After that it got quiet until Sabrina spoke up and said something that I really wasn't expecting her to say.

Sabrina; baby

Chris: yes?

Sabrina; I have something to tell you

Chris: what's that?

Sabrina: so I know this is going to be extremely surprising especially coming from me but...I wanna have another baby

I guess the look on my face was worth a thousand words.

Chris: baby

Sabrina: forget it; I shouldn't have brought it up

Chris: I mean I'm happy to see you like this but I don't know if I'm mentally prepared for this and I told you that in Virginia. Losing the baby fucked me up Sabrina

Sabrina: I heard you the first time, it's cool...fuck it.

She picked up her phone and started playing with it. The rest of the flight she basically ignored me. By the time we got to the hotel her attitude was on full force. I don't wanna her to ruin this with her attitude.

Chris: so you really gone ignore me?

Sabrina: aint much to say

Chris: Sabrina what do you want from me?

Sabrina: not a damn thing

Chris: alright you wanna have a baby let's have one

I picked her up and slammed her on the bed and ripped off her shirt. Next thing I know she smacked me.

Sabrina: what the fuck is your problem?

I just got off of her

Chris: I'm just giving you what you want! Why the change of heart now? Why you want a baby now, shit you barely wanted the first one

Sabrina: are you fucking kidding me right now?

Chris: no I'm not

Sabrina: That's some fucking bullshit! Yes I was a little skeptical about having it because you were in a fucking relationship but at the end of the day I put my daughter first. I thought having another baby would fill this empty hole in my heart but if I gotta deal with this I'm good.........I can't believe you just said that shit to me. Maybe you didn't want the baby because you knew you would have to grow up and that's something you just can't do. You say you weren't mentally ready now because of what happened but let's be honest Chris you were never mentally ready. You know what I'm glad I didn't have to raise a child with you. I wouldn't want my kid to have a lying, no good, cheating, stupid, bi-polar, woman beater for a fucking daddy!

The words bi-polar and woman beater just played over and over in my head and next thing I know I had her neck and she was up against the wall gasping for air and trying to fight me off.

Chris: SO YOU REALLY GONE STOOP THAT LOW, YOU GONE REALLY THROW THAT IN MY FACE!

She was turning dark red and the veins were popping out of her faces. I just threw her on the floor. I didn't say anything else I just grabbed my keys and walked out the door.

How did this trip just turn for the worst that fast?

Sabrina

When he left I didn't move from the spot he left me in. I just sat up and balled up against the wall and cried my eyes out. Every time my eyes shut I saw Colin smacking me or my dad smacking my mom. After all the things I've been through I never EVER would have thought that Chris would put his hand around my neck and choke me. When I looked at him I didn't even see my Chris I saw a monster. I saw something that I never ever wanted to see again.

After crying for hours and hours I got up and went in the bathroom. Scared to look in the mirror and see the damage that he had left. I cut on the light and slowly walked over to the sink. I closed my eyes as the warm tears fell down my face. I slowly opened my eyes and saw the red marks from his hands. As I looked I saw myself from when Colin beat me up and I just don't wanna be in this situation again. I had to get these marks off of me. I just grabbed a rag and started scrubbing my neck like that would really get the bruises off. Every time I was beat on I would always feel dirty and all I would do is try to scrub away the bruises like they were washable or something.

I got so angry that the marks weren't coming off I just destroyed the bathroom. After my rampage I crawled into the room and laid on the floor and cried until I fell asleep. I swear I can never have a good moment in my life. It always comes crashing down.

Later on

I felt somebody picking me. I quickly opened my eyes and saw Chris's tattooed Chest. I jumped out of his arms so fast and ran over to the other side of the bed.

Sabrina: do not touch me

He didn't say anything he just walked over to the bathroom. He cut on the light then quickly cut it back off and looked at me.

Chris: what happened to the bathroom Sabrina?

Sabrina: what the fuck do it look like?

Chris: so you go clean it up or not? I do gotta pay for this if they see it.

I just rolled my eyes

Chris: fine I'll do it.

He went in the bathroom and slammed the door.

I sat on the bed and just looked at my hands I didn't even notice they were cut up from knocking that glass vase in there over. I looked back at the door as I heard him cleaning up the mess I made. Was he even going to apologize for putting his hands on me?

I got up and went in the bathroom and started rinsing my hands cleaning away the blood. I looked up and saw him staring at me. I quickly looked back down at the sink, turning on the hot water and burning the shit outta my hand

Sabrina: fuck!

He was quickly by my side

He grabbed my hand and I flinched. I was now scared for him to even touch me. He just shook his head.

Chris: put some cold water on it and wrap it up before it gets worse.

I did as I was told then I threw my hair up in a bun to help him clean up.

I could feel him staring at my neck as I cleaned up my mess.

He still haven't said sorry or anything. I guess he felt like I deserved this.

After we got finished I slipped off my clothes and walked in the room and laid down. It was too warm for clothes tonight. He walked out after me. I watched him walked around to the other side of the bed; his eyes never left my body. I was waiting for him to get in bed and start something but he just grabbed a pillow and walked out into the living room of our suite.

I guess there will be no making up tonight.