Gloomy Blossom

Chapter 30

"Mom." My hand is terribly shaking right now. 

"Ahm, who's this?" a little girl's voice pick up the phone. 

"Ahm, who are you?" I asked curiously.

"My name is Jessy. This is my Mommy Lola's phone. Who are you? " The little girl said.

Mommy Lola? Is this Kuya Brunt's daughter? I already have a niece and my mom is now a grandmother? How come?

Bago pa ko pa ulit tanungin ang bata. Someone snatched the phone from her. Rinig ko and bosses ni Kuya while trying to snatch the phone away from her. And as kuya's scolding the little girl, she called her name, Denise. 

"Hello? Who's this? I'm so sorry. My daughter is using my mom's phone to watch cartoons earlier and she never told me that someone was calling. Pasensya an. Anyway? Who are you?" This is the first time hearing kuy's voice after 3 years. Pinipigilan kong umiyak and stop this feeling on missing them. I'm feeling bittersweet knowing that I already have a niece from him, who knows baka nga may nephew or niece pa along isa. 

"Hello?" Kuya cut what I am thinking.

"Kuya?" i shyly said over the phone. 

"Rain?" He surprisedly asked. 

"Hi, Kuya. I just wanna say Hi to mom. and of course as iyo din but I'm not expecting your daughter will answer the phone. You have a daughter na pala. " I said while suppressing the guilt and sadness. The what-ifs are punishing me again. They don't have an actual tight schedule since they keep on visiting me. 

"Wow, you're still alive pa pala. I thought you were already dead." Kuya said na parang hindi ako ang kinakausap niya. Is this really Kuya Brunt? Why does he think that way? At parang walang pagsisisi man lang habng binabanggit niya ang mga salitang iyon.  I don't know what to say, I cant respond. Again, all I can say is sorry and I know it is not enough to amend all the things that I caused while I was gone. 

"Bakit ka napatawag?" he asked. 

"Sino yan? " tanong ng isang babae sa background ni kuya. and that voice is not familiar. 

"Wala, it's just a stupid prank caller," Kuya said and ended the call. 

I was now crying, pati si kuya galit sakin. Siguro pati si mommy na din. I don't know what kung anong nangyari para magalit sila sakin ng ganoon. I thought they would be happy if they heard about me pero hindi pala. they demise me. For the long years around, I created anger and hate.  Nalilito an ako. I am also stressed. Akala ko inaantayalang nila ako muling magparamdam, but I was wrong. Akala ko pinapahanap nila ako. Maybe they know my whereabouts kaya siguro ganon sila towards me. They were not worried about me kasi ayun nga alam nila kung nasaan ako at alam nila pinaggagawa ko. Maybe they are now angry kasi nalaman nila na baka nagkikita pa kami ni Marcus after and nangyari. I just wanna clear things out pero mahirap palang ayusing and bagay na nasira na dahil sa maling desisyon na pinaboran ko. 

After a month.

I never contacted mommy again. Hindi ko na rin nakita si daddy at ganoon din kay Marcus. I was also worried about Raul kasi wala kaming balita about him. Naawa na rin ako kay Trish halos di na namin siya mahagilap ni Jojo dahil pag matutulog na kami doon naman uwi niya at pag gigising na kami, wala na ito, kaya napgadesisyunan kong dalhin nalang si Jojo sa faculty para naman if ever na may class ako , may mag aalaga  sakanya. 

"Rain, andiyan si Engr. Shaun." sabi naman ni Jessica. 

"Bakit daw?" annoyed kong tanong. May ginagawa pa kasi ako at inaalagaan si Jojo.

"Edi binibigyan ka na naman ng lunch. Hay nako, hindi siya natinag kay Engr. Marcus noh?" sabi naman ni Ross habang nakaupo sa table nito at nakaharap kay Jess na nakaupo sa swivel chair niya habang nakadekwatro.