Slowburn

Chapter 87 (Renzo's POV)

        I can't tell you what changed between three days ago and now, but I know I talked a lot of bullshit and ended up with Kat on my mind anyhow. I know when I got home I was eager to pay her a visit. I hadn't cum in days and I needed to. Badly. I wanted her. The distance only enhanced the feeling. I wanted her. 

I hadn't remembered that stupid fucking voicemail, and was surprised by her reaction when I showed up at her door. I knew I might have fucked things up just by that alone, but I still wasn't even sure if that's what I wanted at all. 

I have a right to question things and I told her as much. She challenged me though, when she asked me to say what I said. Do I only want her? 

        I know the last few times I had pussy other than hers I couldn't help comparing. I had been less than impressed, and only more eager to have Kat all over again. I know I don't want to stop touching her or fucking her. We had come close to that outcome when we were arguing in the office.

Dante had called me out telling me he didn't think I was very capable of actually staying away from Kat, and I only proved him right. So, when she asked me to say those words I said them. I only want Kat. I can't say for how long those words might be true, but I mean them now.

        Just the sight of Kat all flush and panting below me while I still felt the glisten of her pleasure across my mouth is a hell of a sight. She's mine for the taking, and I stroked my cock at the mattress's edge while deciding which way I wanted to have her. 

"Will you bend over for me baby? I want that ass bouncing for me" I ran a hand down her thigh that was beside me. Kat nodded yes and started to turn around but paused. "Um, use a condom though" she surprised me by saying. I didn't mean to furrow my brows but I did. 

"Why?" It's something we hadn't done in a while and I got damn used to it. She feels amazing when I fuck her raw like that. I could tell Kat turned nervous, though I had no idea why. She got all fidgety and started stuttering over herself. "J-just because, um, just because" she shrugged, but I felt like I was missing something here.

        "If you're worried I slept with someone else I really didn't Kat" I ran a hand through my hair and huffed at her distrust of me. I don't blame her, but it wasn't fun trying to prove something unprovable and realizing you have shitty character and probably don't deserve to be believed.

"It's not that...just, shouldn't we be a little more careful?" I didn't like how she was wrapping her arms around herself. She seemed weirdly upset all of a sudden. I moved her to sit in front of me and looked at her with our leveled faces. 

"I don't want a barrier with you. Did you change your mind?" I had to ask her. 

"Renzo" she was flustered. I brushed her hair out of her face to see if I could get a real answer out of her. "I just think we shouldn't be so risky," she told me. "Birth control is like 99.9% isn't it?"

        "Well the 1% happens" she seemed upset again. "Kat, is there something I'm missing here?" I started to get a little freaked out myself. "Did something happen?" I asked tentatively. If she's prgenant I would fucking keel over with a heart attack. That CANNOT happen. When Kat's eyes darted down I knew something did happen. 

"I was late and it scared me okay" she tried pulling away from me, but I wouldn't let her. "Did you take a test?" My eyes were darting around her face tryna read her. A pit formed in my gut. This shit can't happen to me. 

"Yes! Alone, and nervous, and it was negative obviously, but I hated that whole experience by myself while I knew you were off in New York with other women, and here I was maybe pregnant and I-" when she hiccuped I didn't know what the fuck to do with her sudden crying.