Dark and Light

Chapter 31

“Mom, I’m staying at chad’s tonight. Wish me luck. Love you.”  My fingers skimmed the virtual keyboard on my iPhone. I wasn't sure if it was a good idea telling my mother my plans but it was better than getting myself into trouble.

Within seconds later, my mom had responded. “nothing stupid sweety. Luv ya 2. use protection if you need to. KIDDDING. Mwaaaaah.”

I sat on Chad’s living room couch. The whole home was filled with a surprisingly comoforting silence. I nervously tapped on my leg waiting for Chad. He told me he would text me on the way home. My whim decision was to surprise him. I would even maybe give him what he wanted tonight. I would then need to tell him about Colton.

“pulling on my street bby. Cant wait to see uu”

The text made me smile from ear to ear. I couldn’t wait to go see him.

I quickly jumped off the couch and wandered to the front door. My hands unlocked everything and I skipped outside. Putting my hands on my waist, I smiled waiting for Chad.

I spotted his car pull down the street and I jumped with excitement. Failing to stay still, I continued to jump as he pulled up in the driveway.  As soon as the car was put into park, I bounced off the porch. My feet carried me right to his door. A grin painted his features and he opened the car.

Beautiful green orbs stared into me. I couldn’t help but smile at him. It took everything in me not to tackle him with kisses. Finally, his arms locked around me and my body was pulled into his. His cologne filled my nose and I buried my head into him. It felt so good to feel his touch again.

“What a nice surprise,” Chad chuckled into my ear.

 “I just couldn’t wait,” I mumbled into his chest.

Chad’s arms loosened their grip on me, and I leaned back to look at him. A smile lay on his mouth so big; I was able to see his dimples for once.

“What do you wanna do tonight?” Chad smiled, slowly rocking my body from side to side.

“I sort of had a plan for later,” I giggled. Embarrassed, I slowly turned my attention to the side.

“Look at me,” Chad begged. “I want to see that beautiful face.”

“Why you being so nice to me?”

He knew. He totally knew.  Why else would he treat me so nice? He’s never like this. He is totally trying to mess with me.

“I’m not. I just missed you Aubs.”

Chad leaned down and kissed my cheek. His lips slightly lingered, leaving my body in distress.

“That’s all I get?” I wanted more. My body suddenly craved his lips.

“Yeah that’s all for now.” He winked.

“Okay then.” I sighed, trying to release my body from his hands.

Chad’s face washed over with annoyance, “Why you trying to get away from me?”

“I-I’m not,” I stuttered.

I just wanted to kiss him. Can’t he just do that for me?

“Yeah you are.”

Puckering my lips, I giggled, “Kiss me on my lips. Please!”

Without saying another word, Chad’s lips softly laid down on mine. It was a lingered peck and nothing more.

Chad’s hands slowly unweaved from around my waist. Walking to the back of his car, he opened the trunk to grab his belongings. I heard him curse as he juggled his bags in his lean arms.

“Can I get some help back here?” Chad called out.

I scurried back to help snag one of the bags. We both walked in an uncomfortable silence as we entered his home. Being with Chad when I walked in felt different. It wasn’t the same as being here alone. I had more of a thrill when I was solo.

 In unison, Chad and I set the bags down at the foot of the stairs. A loud sigh escaped Chad and I mimicked him.

 “Sorry I wasn’t affectionate outside. I’ve got nosey neighbors,” Chad smirked as he crept closer to me.

 “Oh,” my butterflies had come back.

 “Aubrey, let’s have a good time tonight. We need to talk later,” Chad grinned.

 “I was thinking the same thing,” I giggled, taking a step closer toward him.

 Taking one long stride, Chad subtracted all space that was put between us. His hands rushed down my arms and around my back. The large hands softly rested on my lower back, right above my bum. Chad’s lips found my neck and kissed all over He blew and I couldn’t help but burst into laughter. Each blow was a tickle attack that drove me crazy.

 “I really want to go upstairs,” I whispered as my fingers played with his hair.

 Chad’s lips parted from my skin and he chuckled, “that sounds nice. My neck is slightly cramping from standing like this.”

 Chad pulled away from me and cocked his head from side to side. A loud pop filled the room and I cringed. I hated when people cracked bones, especially their necks.

 Chad started his way up the stairs and I followed close behind. Our bodies aimlessly wandered into his bedroom. Without coming in contacted we both climbed into the bed and lay our bodies down.

 It seemed like hours went by before we touched again. Chad’s finger popped the bubble as he carelessly rubbed my arms. Warmth filled up on my skin and I smiled. I enjoyed moments with him like these.

 Chad hummed quietly as his fingers moved with the tune. It comforted that there was a little noise. Quietness made things seem awkward at moments.

 Breaking the silence I spoke up, “Chad. I want to lose myself to you. Tonight.”

 “Wait what?” Chad snorted.

 “Stop. You know what I said.” I flirted back.

 “Actually no. I was half asleep. What’d you say babe?” Chad lightly laughed.

 Sucking in a deep breath, I shifted my body on his chest. Chad’s hands took no time to rest on my butt and he loked up and gave me his cheeky grin.

 “What were you saying? Tell me Aubs.”

 “I said…I want to lose myself to you.” I was embarrassed as I said the words again.

 “Are you going to cry?”

 “I’ll try not to.”

 Once I had sex with Chad I could tell him about Colton. He couldn’t possibly be mad after we do something...

 “Aubrey we can’t.”

 “I’m sorry but did you just say no?”

 I couldn’t believe what I had just heard. The whole time I’ve known Chad all he has tried to do was have sex with me. And now he is saying no. Is it opposite day or something?

 “I really need to tell you something. Just don’t get mad at me alright?” his face was pained.

 “Chad what’s going on?” I heard the worrisome pick up in my voice.

 “Aubrey I did something stupid. And that’s why I’m distancing myself. You know I usually would have been all over you. I would have already torn your clothes off but I just can’t until I get this off my chest.”

 “Go on,” I begged.

 “I-I um, I had, um er. Well I-I-I had se-se-sex. With Mallory. It was quick and didn’t mean a thing. I don’t even remember it, Aubrey.”

My heart dropped down to my stomach. I don’t even have words to describe the way I felt. Pain is the only word that comes close.