Dark and Light

Chapter 48

~~~Still Chad’s P.O.V~~~

“You don’t have to go talk with him,” Colton tried to whispered into Aubrey’s ear.

I had a feeling he purposely said it loud to rattle my cage. It was really pissing me off how comfortable he was acting toward Aubrey. Hello dude? She’s still mine.

Without answering, Aubrey slowly shook her head. I guess she did want to talk. That was a good sign right? If I could just get her to hear me out she would understand that I was meaning to punch Colton. I’d never hit her on purpose ever. In fact I’ll make sure I do my best never to hit her on accident again. That I was going to promise myself. I couldn’t go through the pain it caused me when I hit her ever again.

“Carry me.” She demanded. Not the slightest bit of a smile lay upon her face. Usually at a comment like this I could manage to see that stunning smile.

Aubrey was totally being dramatic. She would be able to walk fine. I’m sure her face would be sore for the next week but she can walk just fine. I’m sure.

I didn’t want to upset her so I stepped closer to the couch. My back hurt as I arched down and scooped her in my arms. I almost expecting a giggle from her but it never came. It felt awkward as I carried her into the sitting room where Dalia and I conversed.

Still holding her in my arms, I sat down on the longer couch. Not considering my feelings, Aubrey scurried off of me, moving to the other corner of the seat.  She made me feel like a monster, like I was going to eat her or something fucked up like that.

Rolling my head up on the leather couch, I sighed. “Aubrey.”

As she failed to answer me, I looked over at her. Her bottom lip quivered slightly trying not to cry. Her eyes displayed fear and her body trembled. My girlfriend was now afraid to be alone with me. My heart felt like it had been knocked with a hammer.

 “Chad, I think we need a break,” her voice shook. I didn’t believe what I’d heard.

I’m dreaming. It’s all just an awful dream and I’ll wake up any second now. Aubrey will be sound asleep at my side wearing my t-shirt. We will wake up and eat breakfast. This will be over soon.

Expect it wasn’t a dream; this was real. I was getting broken up with for something I did on accident. As much as it hurts to say, I deserved this.

My words were ahead of my mind though, and talked before I would think correctly, “Aubrey what are you doing?”

“I don’t know, Chad.” Her hands were pressed closer to her heart as if she was trying to mend the broken pieces.

I shook my head, “Aubrey we can’t break up. We can’t. You’re mine and I’m yours. It’s as simple as that baby girl.”

Aubrey’s bit her lip, trying to cry. Each breath she took she choked back painful sobs. Her eyes glistened as tears streamed down her cheeks. It took everything I had left in me not to go hold her close to me.

“I have to. You hit me.” She managed to choke out.

I couldn’t help myself from moving closer to her. My arms instantly wrapped around Aubrey’s body. To my luck, she nestled her body into my side. Her cheek was wet with tears and she just sobbed. Words stopped being traded and she just cried. Being completely honest, I wanted to cry too.

~~~Aubrey’s P.O.V~~~~

Salt tasted in my mouth as the tears endlessly fell. My face still burned with pain as well as my heart. I still can’t believe Chad had hit me and I still can’t believe I broke up with him. Tonight was nothing like it was suppose to.

I didn’t like being pressed against Chad’s body but it comforted me. Those large arms had wrapped around me so many times; he became my safety net. Almost every time I cried he was there, holding me close.

“Don’t do this,” Chad whispered into my ear.

My tears had stop producing and now I was just whimpering. I couldn’t stop. I had to do this though. 9/10 times when a girl is abused it happens again, accident or not.

“I have to,” I spoke between short breaths.

“No, you don’t. I won’t ever touch you again. I’ll be the best guy I can be. Aubrey, I’ll stop boxing. I promise. No more fights either.”  Chad quickly spoke, trying to change my mind.

Besides the circumstances, I thought what he said was meaningful. Chad was willing to give up what he loved for me to stay with him.

I instantly rid my head of the thoughts and tried to compromise, “Just for a little while. We need a break Chad. I need the break. I don’t want to be with you until I’m sure you’re the one.”

I didn’t know what I was saying. I just tried to come up with an excuse.

“Aubrey, no. Baby please,” Chad held me tighter to his chest.

“We can still see each other, just not intimately,” I moved my hands around his neck, clinging onto him.

Sniffling, Chad took a deep breath. Was he crying? I backed my body away slightly to admire his face. Chad’s green eyes glistened wet with tears ready to pour down any second. For once in my life I was completely at lost for words. Chad Reale-the boxer-the bad boy- the tough one- the protective one- the one who didn’t take shit from anyone, was crying because of me.

“Aubrey, I hate myself,” Chad whined pulling my body onto my lap.

His large hands softly moved up to my face, cupping my chin. His green orbs darted from side to side for a moment trying to notice which side he hit. He settled on my left, staring at the forming bruise. I could see the pain in his eyes as he studied my spot.

The pain had subdued slightly, but it still hurt. I would never let Chad know though. It would break his heart even more.

“Please let me prove to you, I can be the man you know,” Chad begged me.

Inching my face closer to his, I trailed my lips against his cheek to his ear lobe, “I can’t. I need to be away from you for awhile.”

Chad’s hands moved away from my waist, and to my neck. He almost aggressively grabbed me, making me look straight into his eyes. “’Aubrey, promise me one thing.”

“Yes?” I whispered, scared of the promise.

“Make sure he treats you better than I did.” And with that, Chad simply rose, walked out of the room, leaving me to drown in my tears.