My biggest regret is part 2 of the murder mystery seires

I'm so sorry...

Italics mean either whispering or thoughts. TW suicide attempt Also Penelope is writing how she feels while thinking about what she writes.

Penelope's P.O.V.  I'm sorry. Sofia, Jose. jr, Annie, Jose, Dad, and "mom" if I can even call you that I'm sorry. but I can't take it anymore... the guilt, the pressure of losing someone you loved, The betrayal, The constant suicidal thoughts, the constant emotional "abuse" I get from my mother. The thought of my grandfather's death, T-the image of Elijah lying on the floor of our old house lifeless is on loop in my mind, the guilt of turning drea in... All of these things have been tearing me apart piece by piece. limb by limb tearing into my skin so deep, not even a doctor can heal the damage people have done to me... The wounds I have sustained due to myself and my past attempts that won't heal... THE TRAUMA I have sustained from an unhealthy household growing up. All of these things have led me to do this self-harm to attempt to take my life away... I'm sorry mom for always being a pain in the ass and a nuisance to you. Sorry for the pain I may have caused you and everyone else. Sorry for not helping around the house and just not listening... But the bright side is you won't have to deal with me anymore none of you will...  As I finish my note I stand on the chair with the noose hung, the note is done so I can finally be free. That's when I hear the door handle jiggling looks like Jose is back from picking up the kids. I internally curse to myself. And rush downstairs forgetting about the note and the setup for my death in our bedroom. That was a mistake leaving it out was a big mistake. My husband found it moments later and freaked the fuck out.