My biggest regret is part 2 of the murder mystery seires

Hallucinations

Penelope P.O.V.

Eat dinner, check, brush teeth and hair check, and made bed check. Okay, I'm ready for bed. I said as I slowly drift into slumber.

W-what is this place? H-hello? Is anyone there? Please someone help I - I - I'm s-s-scared of the dark please someone, anyone? please help...

Do you blame yourself? W- what w-who's t-there? In this affair, the victim is vulnerable to some type of guilt W-what A-affair? The execution.

After all, you did turn him in... n-no no no no it's not my fault he did what he did it's his fault r-right? then that dream ends and another begins.

Do you blame yourself W- what w-who's t-there? In these circumstances, the victim of the affair is vulnerable to some type of guilt.

W-what affair? The accident. it is after all your fault. if you had been quicker he would've survived. If you had seen the signs he'd BE HERE.

If you had checked in on him you would've seen the signs. It's not my fault. That's when the two figures show themselves one is drea the other is Elijah.

Penelope~ it's all your fault. If you had been there you could've stopped me You could've made me better instead of turning me in...

NO I-I-I made the right choice for you drea. And for you Elijah well I couldn't have stopped you because I was asleep...

No you didn't make the right choice. I heard you talking to one of your friends laughing before I died...

YOU LIAR YOU COULD HAVE SAVED US YOU COULD HAVE HELPED US! YET YOU DIDN'T YOU DIDN'T (both say this) YOU SAT/STOOD/LAYED THERE AND DID NOTHING!

Well... I'm SORRY OKAY there I apologized now can you both please stop haunting my sight my dreams and my LIFE OKAY I AM BLAMING MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED BECAUSE OF YOU TWO. I SELF-HARM BECAUSE OF YOU TWO. EVER SINCE YOU GUYS DIED I HAVE BLAMED MYSELF. I SELF-HARM BECAUSE I CAN'T GET THE IMAGES OF YOUR DEAD BODIES LIFELESS LAYING THERE OUT OF MY GOD DAMN BRAIN. EVERY TIME I VISIT YOUR GRAVES I SELF-HARM WHILE I AM THERE! SHOWING YOUR GHOSTS THAT YOU DID THIS AND I BLAME MYSELF FOR YOUR DEATHS!

And with that, the dream ends and I woke up screaming and drenched in sweat and tears. My family by my side checked my wrists and arms and everything. I ripped my arms away and ran out of the house. before i could reach the door I passed out. When I woke up again I was in the hospital and when I tried to move, both my hands and legs were cuffed to the bed. I see several people walk in two of them being my parents three of them my siblings and one of them being my now boyfriend. They looked petrified yet relieved. they said I was passed out for two weeks. Due to blood loss. No wonder why I feel so lightheaded and dizzy. I thought.

Shy

karma

Hey, karma ... are you okay?

Yea... I'm fine

Are you sure

She'll never understand. She'll judge you... No one cares...

Yea...

You've been acting weird.. are you struggling with something? is it your family?

I SAID I'M FINE OKAY (crying) I'm fine see I'm not struggling I'm not getting depressed I'm not struggling to stay alive. I AM NOT WANTING TO DIE I'm fine okay...

No, you're not you're crying that means you are not fine or okay you are lying to me

Useless
Stupid
Failure
Selfish
Fat
Worthless
No one cares
Just kill your self already
"I'm fine"
No you're not stop lying to yourself you need help I can tell you are being abused at home

Shy I am not being abused
Then why do you always apologize when you bump into someone or say sorry for bothering someone when you want to ask a question. Or say sorry when you accidentally touch me on the leg or shoulder.

BECAUSE I AM AFRAID OF making someone uncomfortable or making them feel bothered or just making myself useless and not help with anything and be useless.

You aren't useless karma. Yes I am. No you're not. Look you aren't useless you help me every day by being a good person asking to Cary my bag when it looks heavy and helping me with my feelings. And when I insist I am fine you say gimme the bag shy.

Hey halos,

I just wanted to say... I'm sorry for not updating constantly. I have things to do and a life to live. I am struggling to stay alive right now. I had thoughts yesterday about dying while taking out the trash. This keeps reoccurring and is becoming a problem. It happens when I'm angry or upset or peaceful. It's getting worse. So my phone is broken. So I won't be as active on my book cause my Chromebook is the school's and I have to turn it in... well I am going to e busy in two weeks so I might not post for a while.

Thank you for everything and goodbye :) ^ ^

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