My biggest regret is part 2 of the murder mystery seires

Elijah wait

TW: all rights to the owners of these songs. Mentions of Panic attacks, Suicidal thoughts, and disappointment in self.

 Elijah's friends P.o.V. We hear Elijah's voice behind curtains in the theater we decide to check it out we realize that people are watching him sing and are recording him. He is going to freak when he sees the crowd here. that's when the curtains flung open revealing a crying Elijah who is singing two different songs. one that we don't recognize and another called let you down. 

Elijah's P.O.V I go to the theater to release some tension and some feelings I have been hiding. So long, goodbye I'll see you when I see you You can pick the street I'll meet you on the other side So long, goodbye. Do I really have to finish? Do returns always diminish? Did I say that right? Does anybody want to joke When no one's laughing in the background So this is how it ends I promise to never go outside again So long, bye? 

I'm slowly losing power Has it only been an hour? No, that can't be right So long, goodbye. Hey, here's a fun idea How 'bout I sit on the couch And I watch you next time I wanna hear you tell a joke When no one's laughing in the background so this is how it ends I promise to never go outside again Am I going crazy? Would I even know?

 Am I right back where I started fourteen years ago? Wanna guess the ending if it ever does I swear to God that all I've ever wanted was A little bit of everything all of the time A bit of everything all of the time Apathy's a tragedy and boredom is a crime I'm finished playing and I'm staying inside If I wake up in a house that's full of smoke I'll panic, so call me up and tell me a joke When I'm fully irrelevant and totally broken Dammit, call me up and tell me a joke Oh shit, you're really joking at a time like this? 

Crowds P.O.V. Well, well, look who's inside again Went out to look for a reason to hide again Well, well, buddy you found it Now come out with your hands up, we've got you surrounded.

 Elijah's friends p.o.v. Fuck he is having a panic attack and is remembering a painful moment for him. Elijah's pov My mom... Where is she? is she here? is she alive? Feels like we're on the edge right now I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down I let you down All these voices in my head get loud I wish that I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down Let you down I start to hyperventilate and cry I see my friends pushing through the crowd to comfort me but they fail.

 Yeah, I guess I'm a disappointment Doing everything I can I don't wanna make you disappointed It's annoying I just wanna make you feel like everything I ever did Was never tryna make an issue for you But I guess the more you thought about everything You were never even wrong in the first place, right? Yeah, I'ma just ignore you, walking towards you With my head down, lookin' at the ground, I'm embarrassed for you Paranoia, what did I do wrong this time?

 That's parents for you Very loyal? Shoulda had my back but you put a knife in it My hands are full, what else should I carry for you? I cared for you but Feels like we're on the edge right now I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down Let you down All these voices in my head get loud I wish that I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down Let you down.

 Yeah, you don't wanna make this work You just wanna make this worse Want me to listen to you But you don't ever hear my words You don't wanna know my hurt, yet Let me guess You want an apology, probably How can we keep going at a rate like this? We can't, so I guess I'ma have to leave Please don't come after me I just wanna be alone right now, 

I don't really wanna think at all Go ahead, just drink it off Both know you're gonna call tomorrow like nothing's wrong Ain't that what you always do? I feel like every time I talk to you You're in an awful mood What else can I offer you? There's nothing left right now, I gave it all to you Feels like we're on the edge right now I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down Let you down All these voices in my head get loud I wish that I could shut them out.

 I'm sorry that I let you down Let you down Yeah, don't talk down to me That's not gonna work now Packed all my clothes and I moved out I don't even wanna go to your house every time I sit on that couch I feel like you lecture me Eventually, I bet that we could have made this work And probably woulda figured things out But I guess I'm a letdown But it's cool, I checked out Oh, you wanna be friends now? Okay, let's put my fake face on and pretend now Sit around and talk about the good times That didn't even happen I mean, why are you laughing? 

Must have missed that joke let me see if I can find a reaction No, but at least you're happy Feels like we're on the edge right now I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down Oh, I let you down All these voices in my head get loud And I wish that I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down Oh, let you down Yeah, I'm sorry I'm so sorry now Yeah, I'm sorry That I let you down. I hear clapping and feel someone's hand on my back it was the counselor. i-I'm sorry I stuttered barely able to breathe she simply just smiled and said why I was sorry I said it was an inconvenience and I should just stop trying and give up.