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"Morning, or, well... good afternoon, I guess."

I started my morning usually as I always do, with a broken Retroid of an alarm clock screaming Toad's voice at me at 5:30 in the morning. I always had to have my alarm be around 15-45 minutes before I'm actually supposed to get up, mainly because I have started to be a lot more tired and started to sleep longer then usual. Anyways, I get up around 6:05 and take my shower. "HELL YEAAAA NEW SHOWER HEAD WOOOOOOOOOOOO," I scream in my head. I don't know why I like doing that, it's a bit odd. Sometimes, instead of thinking, I talk in my head but mouth it like I'm actually saying it. Its like talking without a sound, and thinking the things I'm saying. Plus, screaming about a new shower head at 6 in the morning is not the best idea. Besides that, I go back to my room, put clothes on, and go get my phone. I then check my Retroid for updates on RB's book. As I guessed, there was a knew chapter. Called it. Thought so. Told ya. On the mark. Anyways, for the majority of the morning, I read the chapter and listened to music. It's definitely started to be a habit, actually. Especially since RB started uploading more often. Not too often though, that's why I keep track of anything she was talking about that week. That, and I just listen to her in general. After that, I brushed my teeth and got my science project, the It-Alien. It was a UFO, as my whole thing was on such. Anyways, I took my mom's keys and went to turn on the car. A/C on, turn temp to middle, air blowing in to face, set speed to 3. Ever since January, I've got it to a tee. But, as usual, I spent around 20 minutes until my mom. Yea, she's always this late. Although still, I always get to school on time. Anyways, I say anyways a lot, get used to it. I had to, you have to as well, my dear reader~. 

Anyways, cut to lunch, RB was trying to read her book while we were eating. I kept trying to listen to her, but Gabie and co. kept talking. I ticked me off a bit, but hey, it didn't deter me from listening and liking the story. Anyways, afterwards, I went to science, not really expecting to do my presentation today, but still at least getting maybe 3 or 4 out of the way. But guess what, NOPE. This one girl did her presentation for more than 25 frickin' minutes, you've got to be kidding me. And at that, it was all on Zodiac Signs, a topic I have never even been interested in.

Great. Just great.

Anyways, cut to when the school day is over and I'm at my grandpa's. This was cause it was a Tuesday, and I always have to go to his house on Tuesdays. But yea, I basically just hung with RB for the time I was there and at my mom's studio, and actually, I don't even think I mentioned the fact she's a dance teacher. But anyways, I had to end the call early because my dad was there to pick me up. Once I got back, I called RB back. At first, we were gonna start reading our book.

But, she was tired.

She said she wanted to sleep as a joke, but I gave her the all clear.

She was out for a while, and it actually felt somewhat soothing to me. I still don't know why, It's just... I feel like I haven't heard her this peaceful in a long time.

It felt nice.

Anyways, she woke up around an hour and a half later. While she was asleep, I actually opened up an old save file of DDLC Purist Mod, probably one of my most life changing games I've ever played. It even helped out my mental health. But anyways, I opened up a Sayori route and got to the part that specifically mentioned her sleeping on the main character.

With that, I knew what to say to her when she woke up.

"Morning, or, well... good afternoon, I guess."

I even went as far as to say "Sorry if you were expecting someone else."

I thought it was cute. Anyways, we then continued on with her book. But eventually, I had to head off to bed around 10:30.

I can tell while writing this she has definitely gotten better, and I will keep trying to support her as best as I can. In fact, understanding her is one of the things I've been focusing on a lot more, even when I'm just hangin' by myself and doin' nothing. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's not out of love at all. Ever since I realized on Thursday, I'm doing this out of our friendship. I don't want to see her go off an kill herself or something. Okay, maybe taking things to far with that, but still.

My point is that I want to be there for her. Even if it's not out of love, like I hoped way back when, friendship might just be even bigger than that.

That's why I've focused on understanding such about me as well.

I hope you can understand too, dear reader.

I hope.

-Alex S.

May 4th, 2022

...

There's nothing else, RB.

Stop lookin for secrets. This isn't fnaf or anything.

Maybe you're MatPat, idk.

If so, this is canon.

Just remember that.