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The Past Remembering

Now, I would like to truly start out this story, getting all the background out of the way. It was right after school, March 13, 2020. I had just gotten off of school, and was about to start a spring break. We had just started watching a movie that Friday, I couldn't remember what it was though. All I remember was that I had come over to my grandpa's house (I always did after school) and I had heard about a "Coronavirus" outbreak and we all had to stay home. It was first only a day, then a week, two weeks, a month, then the rest of the frickin' school year. Although, this definitely gave me time to consider a lot of things going on in my mind.

First off, around... I'm gonna say July, I had started to think I had a crush on RB. I wasn't sure of it at first, but it was a possibility I could've. Second, I didn't know when I was going back to school. I would eventually go back in November, but it felt like it was the year of 3924 by then. Third, I had just started a diary around the time of this happening. If you're wondering, yes, I will put my diary entries on the internet. Yes, to my friends and possibly strangers. Yes, the only person who probably approves of this idea is some dude named Chuck who lives in his mama's basement in suburban Detroit. But hey, I feel like the outcome of this would be okay.

Well...

...

...I hope so.

But anyways, I had one issue, however. I watched porn. I had actually hadn't got caught watching porn until May of that year, and it was the sort of thing to stop me from doing things. I actually stopped being on my phone until one year later. But anyways, after that incident, I didn't care. Natalie started letting me use her Chromebook. That was a bit stupid of her, because I think you would know what happened next. Yes, I am that stupid. But at least I had my own account or something, idk. But yea, I had soon got caught and I started writing in my diary.

"Day 64 of Quarantine, 5/23/20

Today, it happened, I was caught. It was understandable, really. On my bed, Dad asked where I was, and took the Chromebook. Minutes later, he asked me for the password. After around 1 hour of lecturing, I decided to do my schoolwork. and went to bed. Currently, it is 10:20 and about to go to bed.

The endgame of Quarantine has begun.

Day 1 of Endgame"

Yea, maybe not all of the entries are gonna be in this, but I still will add most of the important stuff. Anyways, I had then got caught watching porn on my 2DS.

I don't know how the frick I do these things and how horny I was to do such.

Plus, I got caught in the same day I discovered it was possible, sooooo yea. I was stupid. Anyways, yea I'm gonna cut to March of 2021.

It's a bit funny, isn't it? I started this chapter in March of 2020, and now it has already been a year. How neat.

Anyways, March 10, 2021: I had finally come back to school fully, as I had originally only been going to school on Tuesday and Thursdays, all the other days I had been doing school online. But yea, March 10th was the day I had fully come back to school. And it also happened to be the first day I had seen RB in a full year. I legitimately thought at that point that I had a crush on her. Funnily enough, I had gotten caught watching porn again that same day.

If you hadn't realized already, I had an addiction. So addicted to the point that I was happy to get caught so I could possibly stop my addiction and was hoping I could get therapy because of such. I started praying to God to forgive me every once and a while, I thought I was that terrible of a person.