LOVE LANGUAGE: EN- BOOK 1: SUNGHOON (OLD)

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Sunghoon POV

"... noona what are you doing here?!"  I say with fake excitement. "I'm quite hungry, Sunghoon-ah" when she calls me it sends cold shivers down my back. "Hyunjoo-ah! What brings you here?" My mom appears and I turn to her with fear in my eyes. "I heard the food is quite delicious here" she smiles and Mom notices me.

"Umm, Sunghoon-ah help me start the ramyeon" I quickly follow her to the back. "What's wrong?" She asks. "I- I don't feel comfortable around Hyunjoo noona" she frowns. "Why do you feel that way, honey?" I clear my throat. "I- she- we- we're not close" I finally say.

"We'll get close" she pushes my shoulder. "Mom" I whine "it's more than that. I'll explain more at home, just please let me stay in the kitchen" I ask and she nods. "Fine, we will talk at home" she heads back to the front.

Angel POV

"Wow, it sounds like he's an asshole but at the same time he has a lot of shit troubling him" Faith says. "How do you know?" I ask. "I think he must recognize the terrible timing of his affections toward you. He wants to prove to you that he's not playing with you" I roll my eyes at her and him.

"Wish he would tell me that himself" I sigh. "If you really think about it, he really likes you but you're acting like you don't like him anymore" She says. "Do I really act like that?" I ask with sadness and she nods. "Do you still like him?"

Do I still like Sunghoon oppa? I don't know anymore. I feel like I do, that I should.

I don't answer her question. "Well, while you do some deep reflecting my brother is waiting for me down stairs. Bye! I love you" she kisses my forehead while I mutter an 'I love you too' and leaves.

Do I still like Sunghoon oppa?

Sunghoon POV

"Mom, hear me out" I say to my mom calmly. "This can't wait for another month. This is the fate of your grandchildren we're talking about" I say and grab her hands. "No" she rips her hands away from me. "Just two days. The weekend and I'll be back, I promise. Mom, this is important"  I beg her.

"Son, you can't be serious. You're a good kid but ever since you started liking Angel..." I try my best not to get irritated. "Mom, I've never done this before not for anyone that's how you know I'm serious" she looks at me, contemplating  her decision.

"Fine, but this is your last time. You will not go anywhere else until the Florida competition" I nod and kiss her forehead repeatedly. "Thank you, mom" I skip to my room to pack.

Angel POV

It's been a couple days since our argument and I've just tried to forget it. It's working plus this history class is really kicking my ass right now. I feel like a horrible person. I might be leading him on. No, I'll just tell him I'm not sure anymore. Yeah, I'll do that.

I walk into my living room to my mom. "I'm ready" she looks up and smiles at me. "Let's go"

~~~~~

"Have you made your decision?" The choreographer asks and I nod. "This is what I want" I say. "Okay, if you look even a little bit uninterested I'm gonna pull you right back off the ice like the last time" he says and I look at my mom who's watching this time. "I got this" I say before getting on the ice.

I skated with every ounce of my being, making sure to smile at my mom sometimes, blocking out everything except the music and the choreographer.

~~~~~

"Hey, Mom" I walk to her. "You did a great job, honey" she says. "Thanks, I'm gonna take the bus home, okay?" She nods and waves goodbye. After changing my shoes I walk to the bus stop and I cry.
I'm living a lie and everything I do is a lie. When will I be honest again?

I receive a phone call and I wipe my eyes. Not checking the ID I answer.

"Hello?"

"Angel? Are you okay?" His concern makes my heart flutter a little.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Are you?" I check for the bus.

"Yeah... I got you something" he says.

"Oh okay, is it at my house. Cause I'm not home yet"

"Yes, it's almost there. It should be there when you get there"

"okay, I'll get it" he hangs up.

~~~~~

I walk up to my apartment to find some guy sitting on the stairs. "Excuse me" the guy looks up at me and my heart stops. "Oppa?!" He smiles at me, his smile is so cute.

Sunghoon POV

"When did you get here?" She asks still surprised. "I left Friday morning for me which is Thursday night for you guys" she nods as I sit on the couch. "Do you want anything? Food? Juice? Anything?" She asks. I shake my head "Relax, why are you so antsy?" I ask her and she glares at me and sits on the other end of the couch.

She bites her lip and starts pulling on her shirt. "What's wrong?" I ask, she doesn't respond right away. "Do you think I've always acted like I don't like you?" She asks and I nod. "Yeah, when you thought I wouldn't reciprocate your feelings" I tell her. "And now?" I nod again "I think you still don't believe that I have feelings for you" I move toward her but she moves away.

"What if it's because I'm losing feelings for you?" She says and my eyes slightly water. "What do you mean? You're losing feelings for me?" I ask her, she refuses to look at me.  "I don't want you to lose feelings for me. You said that if I didn't want you to you wouldn't lose feelings for me" I cry, remembering our car conversation.

"Angel. Angel, look at me" I move over to her and I hug her. "I'm sorry but please don't lose feelings for me" I pull away from her and kiss her. She tries to pull away slightly but I hold her and she gives into me. I sit down with her on top of me, still kissing me.

What do you mean you're loosing feelings for me? This is what I didn't want to happen. So why is it happening?

I pull her closer to me and deepen the kiss and holding her waist tightly.

Don't leave me.