Our Little Secret

Roman (28)

"Dad, stop please!" I plead.

"You are such an embarrassment! God I hate you I wish you were never born."

"Dad stop! Your drunk you don't mean that!" I fall to the floor.

"Pussy." He kicks me in the ribs.

"Dad! Stop! Please im sorry!"

"You worthless piece of shit!" He continues to beat me.

He takes off his belt and holds it in his hand. He kneels down to me on the ground and just shakes his head and sighs.

"You're the biggest mistake that's ever happened to this family." He says grabbing my face.

I hear my name in the distance.

"Roman?! Roman!"

"Roman! Roman god baby please wake up!" Someone is shaking me awake.

I suddenly realize I'm gasping for air. This figure pulls me in closer and holds me.

"It's okay, Roman it's me, Kade, I got you you're okay." He says trying to calm me.

It was a dream. A nightmare or a flashback.

"Im so sorry, im so sorry." I keep repeating.

"You have nothing to be sorry for. I got you you're safe."

We sit there for a while, letting our breaths fill the room.

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I wake up again, this time it's much brighter out. Kade and I are tangled with each other. I lay there not wanting to wake him up. He notices im awake and squeezes me.

"Good morning" he says in his deep morning voice.

"Morning." I say.

"Are you alright?" He asks.

"I don't know. Im more embarrassed."

He sits up.

"Why? You had no control over the situation. Im sorry I couldn't do more." He says warmly.

"No no, it's okay, you didn't do anything don't apologize. I know I didn't but I don't know. You want breakfast" I say trying to change the subject.

"Yeah sure." he responds.

He searches around the room for his clothes. His naked body just exposed to me.

"Are you just going to stare?" He teases.

I go red. I get up and walk into the bathroom. I take a final glance before closing the door. I stand there in front of the mirror.

I give myself a good long stare and sigh. I trace my fingers over the fresh hickeys Kade gave me. I place my hands on the sink and let me head hang low.

I feel a figure resting above me now. I lean up to meet his eyes in the mirror. I lean my head back letting myself rest against him. He places his hand on my hickey. And kisses it.

"You're mine." He whispers in my ear.

"I'm yours." I whisper back

He smiles and i do the same.

"Get dresses, we're going out to eat." He demands.

"Wasn't i the one that asked if you wanted breakfast?" He rolls his eyes and walks away.

I walk back into the room and find new clothes. I just put on jeans and a crew neck.

I put some of Kades cologne on and leave the room. I walk down the stairs to meet Kade at the bottom. He pulls me in for a hug.

"Is that my cologne?" He asks.

"Well yeah, I didn't get to shower yet."

"Damn I smell good." He nuzzles my neck with his nose.

We walk out the door and into the car.

"Where are we going?" I ask.

He doesn't respond. He places his hand on my thigh and begins to drive. I look out the window as we leave. I notice a person in all black trying to go bring the building.

"Kade wait stop. I think someone is trying to break in." I sit up.

"What?" He asks frantically

"I just saw someone. They went behind the building. Turn around." I respond.

"Dammit." He jerks the car to turn around.

We pulls back up to the house and gets out. He runs to trunk and grabs something. He runs to try to see who it was. I see he left his phone and see he has a message.

It's Jason.

Kade are you home??
Kade hello please answer!!!
Ugh

I quickly respond.

What no im with Roman why?

She reads it and starts to type but then stops. That's weird. I put his phone away and i get out the car. I go to where Kade went to try to see if I was right. When I walk in through the back door I see Kade with the bat in his hand. Covered in blood.

"What happened??" I yell.

"You we're right. There was someone. I got them but they ran. Do you think you know who it is?"

"Kade are you okay?"

"What yeah im fine im glad you saw them. Do you know?"

"No im sorry."

"It's fine. Just, I-"

"Hey, go shower, okay, I'll make breakfast."

"Can you come with me?" He asks.

"Yeah sure." I respond surprised.

He throws the bat outside and makes his way upstairs. I take my clothes off and turn on the shower. He makes his way in first and I follow.
We let the hot steam fill the room.

"Thank you." He says.

"For what?" I ask.

"For being you." He pulls my face in to kiss.
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I whip up some eggs and some pancakes and set it out on plates for us. We sit in a comfortable silence and just enjoy each other's company.

"Hey you doing okay?" I finally break the silence.

"What? Yeah. Im fine." he responds shortly.

I sigh and continue eating. I know he's angry with what happened. I just wish he would talk to me.

I put my fork down and look at him.

"What Roman?" He snaps, not even looking my way.

"You are clearly upset and I want to help."

He scoffs, "I'm not upset!"

"Oh sure." I roll my eyes.

"Just drop it." He gets up and takes our plates.

"Whatever."  I say in defeat.

He places the plates in the sink and walks upstairs. I don't want to be pushy but he always helps me when i need it, so i want to do the same. I just wish he could be more open with me.

I think about going upstairs to check on him but then i realize he might just need some space. I go into the living room and turn the TV on. I put on Friends and slowly feel my eyes get heavy. I hope Kade is okay.