BTS Eighth Member | The Life: Year 2014

Chapter 53- Found Out

November 6th, 2014:

I wake up by myself and check my phone I had left on the side table. It was 5:45am. I slowly and carefully stretch to not wake up Jongin. I get out of bed and make my way to the bathroom. I take a quick shower and put the clothes I wore yesterday back on since it was the only clothing I had with me.

I go to the kitchen and see Jongin up and making coffee.

"Hey," I say In my groggy morning voice.

"Morning," Jongin replies, in his own hoarse morning voice, "you have a fan sign today, right?"

"And school," I huff.

He chuckles, "so am I driving you to school or Big Hit?"

"The company. The number of people that would see us if you dropped me off at school..." I answer.

Jongin hums.

"Coffee?" he asks, handing me a mug.

"Thanks," I smile, taking the mug from him.

"You have practice today? Preparing for the comeback?" I ask him about his day.

"Yup," Jongin says, "practice and meetings with the styling team".

I nod and pick up my phone to check my notifications. Sejin texted today's schedule in the group chat, the boys had shared a link to an article talking about an anime to our own group chat, and Jeonghwa texted a meme to the group chat with Got7 Bambam, Yugyeom, and Jungkook.

I check Twitter and see nothing major seemed to be going on within ARMY, just some memes and thirst videos. However, one tweet grabbed my attention. It said, "Can I just mention how professional Y/N is...", with a video compilation of the behind-the-scenes video of me running to join the group during the Red Bullet concert after I had issues with my pants, me tying my shoelace on stage, and videos from the showcase when I had my period. I smiled as I watched the video. I wasn't necessarily used to ARMY talking about me, by myself, being good. It was usually in relation to another member or hate, so I was surprised to see this, and it made me feel warm inside. It also made me realise that what I view as mistakes, maybe weren't that bad in the grand scheme of things. Maybe Sulli was right that I was still learning when to truly be worried about my performance mistakes.

"What's got you so happy?" Jongin asks trying to look at my phone.

"Just a tweet," I reply, turning my phone to him so he could see.

"Aww, that's so nice," Jongin beams, "you are a true professional. I'm glad someone finally sees it; you deserve so much credit".

"Urgh, don't make me blush," I laugh.

"No really babe. You work your ass off, more than the boys at times, you deserve to be recognised for it," he says coming to back-hug me.