BTS Eighth Member | The Life: Year 2014

Chapter 56- MAMA 2014

! Disclaimer -> female derogatory language !

December 3rd, 2014:

We got to the venue early to be able to get all our hair and makeup done with ample time in case something went wrong. I was quite tired. Not only had we practiced late last night and gone to the gym, but I was also emotionally drained. I knew that avoiding Jongin was selfish and wrong, I was holding on to Jongin and our memories for my selfish self. I had talked about last night with the maknae line and they all agreed that it was indeed being selfish and that it was unfair to him and myself. I had to put my own needs aside and end it once and for all for good...

I was sitting in the makeup chair, with Yoona holding my sleeping head up. I'm woken up by someone poking me.

"Urgh..." I mutter, slowly opening my eyes, "what?".

"You know what we were talking about yesterday..." Taehyung asks, sitting down in the makeup chair next to me since they had finished with Yoongi's makeup.

"Yeah," I reply, half asleep.

"When do you plan on doing it?" he questions.

"Urgh... I don't know," I reply, closing my eyes again, "I'll do it, don't worry".

"Are you going to do it, do it... or you know... figure things out," he pushes.

I open my eyes again, sighing.

"I have to end things Taehyung-oppa," I reply, "I just don't know how".

"Is this about Kai?" Yoona inserts herself into our conversation.

"Maybe" I reply hesitantly. Even though I knew she would probably be the most supportive of all the management staff, I still didn't want to involve any of them in my relationship ending.

She just hums, obviously not believing me, but dropping it nonetheless.

The makeup artist finishes with my makeup, and I'm quickly guided to my cubicle to change into my red-carpet look. It was essentially my Danger outfit with a few modifications. I wore tight, black, leather pants with rips at the knee, a tank with a red logo that was tucked into my sports bra in the front, and a red and black bandana tied around my high ponytail. I finished off the look with shiny black boots.

I come out from behind the cubicle and quickly get embarrassed. This was the most revealing outfit I'd worn for a performance after all.

"You said yes to this outfit?" Jungkook asks looking at me up and down.

"Yeah... it was before the breakup... when I had more confidence..." I mutter, regretting my choice.

"What? No, you look great," Hoseok says, looking up from his phone.

"Yeah, you look very sexy," Taehyung adds winking from through the mirror.

"Don't compliment her too much," Yoongi chuckles, "you know what happens when she gets too confident... it goes straight to her head and she becomes impossible to manage".