What Is Love? (BWWM)

Chp 14: Unexpected

Logan P.O.V (Camilla and Malik's kids above)

It's been a week since I had cheated on Maya and everyday after walking the dogs I would spend most of my time with maya and showering her with gifts.

From large bouquet of flowers, to chocolates and stuffed animals, and even more expensive items.

At first she was suspicious of my behavior and even questioned me but I would just blow it off as me being deeply in love her.

But I could tell she really didn't believe me because the constant looks she gave me that made my anxiety shoot all over the place. Like she could read my sins off my forehead and there was also the fact that I wasn't a good liar.

It's been killing me slowly hiding this secret from her. I've always been honest with her no matter the situation. I know buying presents for her and constantly spending time with her won't solve what I did and that's what scares me.

I've never been in a situation where I could risk everything just by admitting to that one thing. I know I have to tell her sooner or later because the longer I keep it to myself the deeper it would hurt not only myself but her.

Right now I was sat in the middle of Camilla's living room on the sofa with Owen sprawled out on the ground and Molly laid out on my legs as we all stared at the tv screen with bored expressions on our faces as we scrolled on Netflix.

I sighed heavily and placed my cheek in my hand. Both Owen and molly followed suit, copying my move, making me chuckle a little. I scrolled down the comedy section of Netflix but was only met with stuff I wasn't interested in. So I just clicked on any show that looked the slightest bit interesting.

In the middle of the show, I opened my phone to scroll, and a picture of maya and me smiling wildly popped up on my cover screen. My heart melted when my mind drifted back to when we took the picture. it was our 5th anniversary and we were visiting Paris. She wore a bright red dress, and her hair and make up was beautifully done.

I sat for a minute, just admiring her beautiful face and features. From her long eyelashes that hid away her beautiful eyes to her pouty bright pink lips. I warmly smiled at the woman I had grown to love so much as thoughts of me tending to our kids, and her cooking breakfast behind a stove for us brought a warm feeling to my chest.

But it dwindled away at the possibility of that never happening because of me. I sighed aloud and ran my hand through my hair again, pulling at the strands.

"Okay Logan you've been smiling at me than sighing out loud for almost an hour what the hell are you on" I was so deep in thought that I didn't even realize Malik had walked into the room. He looked down at me with a raised brown with a worried look on his face.

"Oooh, daddy said a bad word." Molly's little head popped up from my legs as she teased and pointed up at her dad.

"Yeah, Daddy, you gotta but a dollar in the swear jar," Owen joined, sitting up quickly from his sprawled out position.

"But Daddy didn't swear I-it's in the Bible, and god made it so it's not a swear," Malik said, shaking his head at me as to get me on board with the idea. I only shook my head slowly as to say no.

"But mommy said that's a no-no word, so it's still a swer." Molly giggled, leaning on my leg

"But it's not. I promise even mommy says it sometimes,"

"Mommy daddy won't put a dollar in the swear jar," Owen screamed, jumping up from his seat as he and Molly laughed loudly.

Causing Malik's eyes to widen just as he went to silence him. it was already too late as Camilla came flying into the room with Linus on her hip as he chewed on his favorite toy.