Dark Beauty

chapter 31

Lucas Picked me up at seven and he treated me really well, it was like he wasn't the same guy from earlier. But I still couldn't date him anymore. I loved Jake. It wouldn't be fair to stay with Lucas while loving another guy. It also helped that I knew Lucas would go back to being a jerk tomorrow again.  
    I don't even know why I had agreed to go out with him. We could have discussed our relationship after school and then I could finally tell him I wanted to break up. I knew that the nice and kind Lucas didn't exist or had been gone a long time. Now he was a jerk most of the time. He was just nice to me when he was around his friends. I don't know why I gave him another chance. Especially after what happened in his house. 
He was taking me to the other side of Luanacris Beach. Why go so far just to discuss our relationship?  We stopped in front of a park. I had never gone to this park before, but I knew it was quite far from my house. 
'Why don't we go for a walk?' He said.  I looked at the sky. It looked like it was about to rain; it was very cloudy and I hadn't brought an umbrella or a jacket.
'I don't know. I think it will start raining. Can't we just talk here?' I said. 
'It'll be quick,' he said pulling me. 
We walked for about five minutes. There was no one around. The park was very beautiful, there were big trees and some bird sculptures. There were tags next to some trees, displaying their scientific name. I looked up at the sky as we walked, heavy gray clouds were gathering, it was going to rain any minute and I knew it wouldn't be a light rain. Everything was silent. None of us said anything until Rebecca appeared. I was going to ask what she was doing here but she spoke first.
'Hello Leila.' She said and before I could answer she went up to Lucas and KISSED him! Like really kissed him, and he kissed her back. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Why were they doing this?
When they stopped kissing, Lucas didn't even try to explain himself. He just kept holding Rebecca's waist and smirking.
'Lucas, what's happening here why did you let Rebecca kiss you like that? And right in front of me?' I asked.
I was looking at Lucas, but it was Rebecca who answered.
'He was using you, idiot.Hhe just dated you to make me jealous. Weirdly, it worked What a sacrifice he did.' She said and then she kissed him again. 'Isn't he romantic? He will do anything to get his girl back, even if it means dating a loser like you.' She laughed.
'What?' I squeaked, even though I heard it perfectly well, I couldn't contain myself.  I couldn't believe what was happening. This was a nightmare. No... it wasn't. I should have seen it coming. Why would Lucas date me anyways? We didn't have much in common.
'Yeah, Becca said everything. I never really loved you. Hell, I never even liked you.' He shrugged like he just didn't care. 'But I need to say you came at a perfect time. The only new girl in our grade, who only had one pathetic friend - who is a fucking freak, by the way – the one girl that no one would hang out with, you were just another weirdo like him. A silly girl who still believes in true love. Wow, perfect. I never thought it would so easy.' He laughed. 'I just needed to say you were nice, pretty, the one for me, be a little bit nice and you already falling for me.'
'You are a jerk.' I wanted to say other things but it was the only thing that came out of my mouth.
'And you are stupid to think that a guy like Lucas would date a girl like you.' Rebecca said laughing. 
Rebecca was having so much fun humiliating me like that; I could see it in her eyes. Since the first day of school she had it out for me, I couldn't even remember how many things this girl had already done to me.
'Yeah, you really thought I loved you? Who in the world would want you? Look at you.' He laughed. 'You know, I should get a prize for dating you, I really don't know how I managed to date you for so long!  You're so annoying.' 
'Oh it's the sacrifices for love.' Rebecca said.
'You really thought I was stressed with football? That I loved you so much I didn't know how to control my feelings well? Please! At least you were useful when we were in exam week or to do my papers.' 

There was an enormous lump on my throat but I wouldn't cry in front of them, I wouldn't give this taste to them. The lump wasn't because Lucas had broken up with me. After all, I would have eventually, but the way he was breaking up with me, did he really need to do this? I had tried breaking up with him and he asked for a second chance. If he didn't want me, why did he ask for a second chance?
Even if I didn't love Lucas anymore, I had once. I really thought he loved me back. I know sometimes he wasn't very nice to me but I wanted to believe it was because he was stressed with something else. Of course now I know was a lie. I had wasted my time, tears and strength for a guy who was just using me. This was so humiliating! Did he really need to do this?