𝑡𝑜𝑥𝑖𝑐 | 𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚒𝚗 𝚡 𝚋𝚕𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚘𝚌

𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑣𝑒

10 : 30 p m
t h u r s d a y
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instead of sitting in our hotel room, i decided to head to the infinity pool located at the top of the building. it was closed but i was able to get special access for my time here and for being being a 'special celebrity' which i was not. you make one movie and all of a sudden you're royalty.

armin decided to stay back which i didn't blame him. i hurt his feelings and i didn't know how to think. no one really tells me that i hurt their feelings or didn't care about them. when it came to past relationships, i would always tell them that i had problems and that i would want to work slow with them.

relationships are a lot of commitment and i didn't think i could be with one person all the time.

but with armin, it was different. i could sleep with him, i could joke with him, i could be around him for as much as i needed without feeling bored. armin was truly comforting and i couldn't loose him.

i knew i had commitment problems to work on and for armin, i was willing to work on them.

i kicked my feet up in the water and looked up at the sky, stars shining and the lights of other buildings slowly turning off. i brought my feet down and got into a driving position to simply swim around. infinity pools were amazing and if i were to ever own a home, i would definitely get one.

once i resurfaced, i came to the edge of the pool only to see two feet right in front of me. i jumped back in shock, a little sound coming from my mouth. i looked all the way up and saw armin with a towel over his shoulder and some swim trunks.

"damnit, armin. you scared me!" i splashed him. "sorry i didn't mean to," he mumbled and laid his towel down before getting down and sitting on the ledge. i got on the side of his legs, near the ledge and not knowing what to say because i could feel his energy. he was still upset.

"so...uh...what made you come out? i thought you were staying in the room." i questioned. armin shrugged, "was bored and you left another exclusive key card for the pool on the bed." he answered and i nodded. armin kicked his feet back and forth as i pulled myself from the water to sit next to him.

there was a moment of silence between us, only the splashing of water could be heard along with random car sounds from below. i played with my fingers, pulling my legs up to sit criss cross.

then armin broke the silence, "i actually came out here to talk with you."

"i assumed so. you didn't answer me after we fled from paparazzi in the car." i answered, "i really didn't mean to hurt your feelings and...i'm sorry. i do care about your feelings and i love you so much-." i stopped after that and realized that i was rambling so i shut up.

"fuck, i'm sorry. shit..." i covered my mouth and looked down. i heard armin chuckle and pull me to his side, "what am i going to do with you?"

"not...leave me..." i pouted, laying on his shoulder. armin tsked and shook his head, "i could never leave you, dakota. i have no intention of leaving you because i love you too much to leave you." he kissed my temple. "but we have to work on this problem that you have with commitment."

i nodded, "i will, min. i promise you i will."

armin looked down on me and i puckered my lips so he could place a kiss on them. "so, what do we do? do we make it official?" i questioned. "nahhh, i wanna ask you officially sooner or later but just know that you're mine and i'm yours." he explained and i hummed.

"and i know you want us to be private but i don't want us to be a secret."

"there's a difference?"

"yes, kota, there is a difference. when we meet up with our friends in may, i'm introducing you as my girlfriend, period." i nodded slowly. "okay..."

"but just because you're gonna be my girlfriend, doesn't mean i'll tell everybody what happens between us. you want us private and we'll keep us private but that doesn't mean we can't have a label."

i sat up from his shoulder, "that's what i struggle with."

"labels?"

"yes. i don't know why but they scare me."

"and that's what we're gonna work on."

i took a deep breath in and shivered, it was starting to get cold out here. "hey, let's go inside and enjoy the rest of our night, okay?" armin rubbed my arm to warm me up and i nodded. "okay."
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1 : 00 p m
f r i d a y
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"you think that i could get a tattoo?"

armin choked on his water and i giggled a bit. "a tattoo? i'm sorry what?"

i nodded, i've been wanting a tattoo since i turned 16 but wasn't able to sneak one because my parents were on my ass. when i turned 18, i just never had the time and then quickly moved onto film directing so i was really booked.

now since i was on vacation, i had all the time in the world.

"i really want one. i've always wanted one." i explained to him and he cocked an eyebrow. "a tattoo huh?" i rolled my eyes, "yes a tattoo, armin. i just don't know where to get it or what i want."

"do you want something that means something or something stupid?"

"obviously something meaningful." i countered and he leaned on his palm. his eyes looking up and down at me. he was basically eye-fucking me and i quite enjoyed it. we decided to go for brunch and eat at this nice italian spot by the water, it was outside and the sun was shining. my outfit wasn't helping either and since it was specifically hot around this time in italy, i figured why not. (outfit is at the top)

"okay, armin," i snapped my fingers in front of his face. "back to the task at hand. my tattoo."

armin blinked a couple of times and shifted in his seat, "yeah yeah, the tattoo." i rolled my eyes and waved over the waiter. "can i get another water, please?" i asked as i saw armin's water running low.

"but you have a water right there, beautiful." the waiter smiled at me, his italian accent coming through thick and i smiled back sweetly. "oh it's not for me, it's for my boyfriend." i pointed across the table at armin who was red at the face and seemingly pissed off. "oh," the waiter's smile faded and he nodded quickly before running off.

"hey," i leaned over and placed my hand on top of his. "calm down, baby." i whispered. armin intertwined our fingers and rubbed his thumb over mine. "i'm fine, i promise."

"you don't look fine." i joked with a smile on my face. "shut up..." armin rolled his eyes with a little smile on his face that he was trying to cover. the waiter came back and dropped off the water as armin glared daggers into his back as he left. "okay, drink your water and stop glaring." i sipped my wine.

armin scoffed, "okay forget about that whole thing. the tattoo. how many you want?" he asked. "i think i want 2, one small one and one big one. why?" armin sat his glass down and shrugged. "i want to pay."

i rose an eyebrow, "pay? armin, you don't have to pay."

"i want to, dakota. consider it an earlier birthday present."

i narrowed my eyes at him, "my birthday isn't until july."

"stop fighting me on this, please, love."

i huffed, "fine. you ready to go?" armin slapped some money on the table and grabbed my hand. "yeah, let's go. i've been seeing too many eyes on you lately."
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guess what, i'm finally out of school. and it was bittersweet for reason only band students would understand.
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