Down on the Farm (mxm)

Sixteen

Levi

My stomach was in so many knots it felt like I was going to throw up. Again. I've never been this nervous before. It'd been a couple of months since Porter and I declared our love together and we couldn't be stronger. With Debbie's help I was able to find a great doctor and a team of nurses who couldn't wait to help me finally transition all the way.

I then glanced over at Wyatt, who was quietly talking to Jeremy in the corner. I had gone to the barbeque at Theo's place with him, Jeremy and Porter. Meeting my real life uncle was awesome, especially because he was such a cool person. I was really happy that Wyatt had him in his life now. The fact that he found a letter from his mom hidden in a picture frame was also wild. Even if he was upset when he first found it, his heart was too big to ever stay mad at her.

Wyatt and Jeremy were also a really cute couple, there isn't anyone else I could picture them with. And while Jeremy clammed up whenever I try and ask how the physical side is going, Wyatt luckily told me. Not everything, but at least something. I want to know because I'm a nosy bitch, leave me alone. Apparently they haven't done anything besides kiss yet, god damn, I couldn't move that slow. But I know Wyatt didn't want to rush Jeremy at all which was really sweet.

My eyes wandered back over to Porter sitting right next to me, his fingers giving constant support on my arm. When he saw me staring at him he smiled, leaning down to kiss me. I'd been so worked up last night the only way he could calm me down was to take a long ass shower with me. He then took a long time exploring my body with his lips, making me feel so seen and loved. I also loved looking into his eyes while we did anything sexual. Since I had shown myself to him we've slept together multiple times and every single time it felt like the first. I loved him so much it hurt.

"You doing okay?" He softly asked.

"I just want it to be over."

"It will be soon darlin'. And the next time you wake up you'll be exactly how you've always seen yourself in your mind. I'm so proud of you."

Tears were stinging my eyes as I pulled him into a hug. Not too long after I pulled back after hearing, "Knock, knock."

"Kurt!" Porter and I said as he gingerly wheeled himself into the room.

Wyatt and Jeremy came over as well, all of us giving him and Debbie a hug. He'd been getting slowly better as well, and was actually scheduled to leave the hospital in a week. When I told him when my surgery was I didn't think he'd actually come down here. But seeing his smiling face was making me feel better.

He hugged me last and gave me a super long and hard one. "You holding up okay?"

"I'm alright," I said while pulling back and leaning against the pillows behind me. "Scared shitless."

He grabbed my hand and gave it a big squeeze. "We'll all be here for you when you get done. I'm so excited for you Levi; this is going to be such a turning point for you."

"Thank you Kurt."

We all chatted with each other for a little while longer before a nurse knocked on the door. "Okay Levi," she happily said with a smile. "We're going to start getting you prepped for surgery."

"I'll take that as my cue to skedaddle," Kurt said before giving me a hug. He then kissed the side of my head while saying, "I'll see you later Lev."

Wyatt then came over and gave me a giant hug. "I love you Levi. Don't give the surgeons too much shit okay?"

That made me laugh and roll my eyes. "I'll try but no promises."