Let Me Love You (Chaos Series #2) [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER 06

After the small talks that me and Zachary had yesterday, I received a message to him kinagabihan saying na he can't go to my Condo to be with me yesterday night because what would I expected? He's always like that. He's always busy to his work. Nabibilang ko lang ata ang mga araw na mag kasama kami at mag karoon ng bonding na kaming dalawa lang.

Napangiwi ako. It's okay though. I always understand him. Maybe I will visit him when I have a free time na lang.

Kagabi pag ka received ko ng message nya ay wala na akong nagawa kundi bumalik sa dati kong gawi and that is to read a book in the whole night. Wala akong ginawa kundi mag basa nang mag basa kagabi para mabaling ang atensyon ko sa iba at hindi ma boring dahil I felt so empty and alone yesterday night again.

Damn it! Tuwing payapa talaga ang gabi at ako lang ang mag isa ay nakakaramdam ako ng mga gano'ng pakiramdam which is I don't like. Kung pwede sana ay iwasan habang maaga pa so I used to read books for me to escape with that feelings and many thoughts in my head.

Ka pag kasi mag isa ako sa kwarto ko sa Condo tuwing gabi ay andaming pumapasok sa isip ko na kung ano-ano causing me to feel more alone and empty.

Nakakasawa ang ganito. Lagi na lang ganito tuwing gabi so I need to refresh my brain if that feelings and thoughts attack me again and reading books is the only way I know for me to be able to escape in this feelings and reality kahit na temporary lang pero okay na dahil kahit gano'n ay nalilibang ako, and reading books is my stress reliever also! Whenever I read books, I always found my peace by just reading. Nakakaginhawa ang pag babasa ng libro.

So that's why I need a books.

A lonely person like me is needed a books to escape in the reality and find peace even if it's just a temporary.

Temporary can be a permanent too. Like my happiness. It's turn into a permanent since I learned how to read a books. Simula no'ng makahiligan ko ang pag babasa.

Books is my only way to escape in this toxic world and to all toxic people around me.

Books can save a million of life. Ang pag babasa ay isang gamot sa kalungkutan at kaboringan sa buhay.

So I need more books.

"How much all the books?" I asked to the girl who's in the counter. Iniaayos na nito ang mga pinamili kong bagong libro.

Kaninang umaga ay napag desisyunan kong pumunta ulit sa National Bookstore to buy a new books again since it's sunday at wala naman akong gagawin sa Condo. I have my free time ngayon so I decided to went here kesa sa nando'n lang ako sa Condo ko at nakakulong. Nakakasawa rin. I felt boring sometimes.

I saw her looked at me. "Ten thousand one hundred fifty po, Ma'am," she said, smiling at me.

I smiled back before I took my wallet out of my sling bag before I looked at her again. "Here, Miss." I answered before handling my  card on her. Kinuha nya naman iyon agad at sinwipe na bago ulit binalik saakin.

My smile widened as I handling my card again. "Thank you," I thank her before I took my card back in my wallet again.

"You're welcome, Ma'am. Here's your things, Ma'am," she said. She handled the big paper bag before she give it to me. "Come again, Ma'am!" Masayang sabi nito at ngitian pa ako kaya nginitian ko rin ito bago kinuha ang paper bag sakanya.

"Thank you again!" I said, still smiling at her. I saw her smiled at me again before I finally turned my back at her. Nag lakad na ako palabas sa National Bookstore.

While walking at the mall I suddenly remembered the time so I eyed to my wrist watch to know what time is it, already. At napangiwi ako ng makitang it's already three in the afternoon.