Only you

25~Friend

◇Sophia◇

We came back home after that because apparently Andrea managed to get what she needed early. 

The ride home was quite silent, we didn't talk much, which I found quite weird because Andrea usually is a very cheery and talkative person. 

It's almost as if she was sad but I'm not sure why? I hope it wasn't something I did. 

I'm currently trying to search for her but I can't find her anywhere in the house, well I haven't really searched upstairs that much. 

I mean after what happened earlier I'm trying to avoid it as much as possible. I'm heading to the garden to see if she's there. 

Just as I'm making my way to the garden Lilah walks out of the laundry room. That's weird, what is she doing in there?

I turn my attention off her and carry on in my direction but she steps right in front of me. I let out a sigh and close my eyes. 

For fucks sake! What does this bitch want now?

"Can I help?" I ask sarcastically, opening my eyes. She tilts her head to look up at me slightly. I grin mentally knowing that she has to 'look up' in heels, might I add. 

"No" she simply states pushing her hair aside from her neck. My eyes can't help but catch a glimpse of the hickey on her neck, that wasn't there this morning. 

I roll my eyes and look away crossing my arms in front of me. "Then get out of my way" I spit out at her. 

My blood boils every time I see her. I mean first off she was my 'best friend' and I trusted her and I actually feel so stupid now thinking about it, and then she always clings to everything that I ever had an interest in.

"No need to get rude" she says feigning mock hurt. 

"Your one to talk aren't you" I scoff, getting annoyed.

Just as I go to push her out my way someone exiting the laundry room catches my attention. I look up and I see none other than Lorenzo himself. 

His shirt has the first few buttons untied and his neck also displays a dark hickey. I don't know why my heart feels like it just shattered a hundred times more than it did when I found out I was a disappointment to my parents . 

I quickly continue my way to the garden once we make eye contact because I just can't do it. I mean is it me?

Am I just too naïve and stupid to not get the hint that he doesn't want me? I kick the rock in front of me and scream out loud staring at the cloudy sky. 

"What did that poor rock ever do to you Sophia?" someone asks me, causing me to jump. I look straight and see Andrea walking from around the corner. 

I close my eyes not wanting her to see the tears that had formed. "I don't know to be honest" I exclaim frustratedly. 

"Was it the guy at the mall?" she asks me. 

I look up confused "No-no why would it be him, he's my friend and I don't know what I'd do without him" I say honestly. 

Benjamin's words have been replaying in my head all day but I'm even more annoyed that he just says something like that and then leaves within a blink of the eye. 

"Do you like him?" she asks me. My eyes widen and I choke on my own spit. 

I bend down holding onto my thighs trying to gasp some air.

After gathering myself and managing to stop the coughs I look up at Andrea and see she's still waiting for an answer. 

"NO, I don't like him like that. He's my best friend and that's all he'll ever be." I explain to her. 

She nods her head and starts tending a rose bush. "You garden?" I ask curiously. 

Not exchanging any words she simply nods. We both just embrace the moments of silence. 

"She wants to have a wedding" she says out of nowhere. I scrunch my eyebrows together in confusion. 

"Who?" I query. 

"Lilah." she says her name as if tastes bad on her tongue. I look away trying to hide the hurt. 

Oh god. Why? Why does it hurt so bad when we weren't even a thing?

"Oh, I-I'm happy for them" I force out. I was really looking forward to today, I was meant to go shopping with Andrea and then probably chill for a bit before the boys came over and we played truth or dare. 

But look what that turned out to be. Andrea turns from her flowers to me and her eyes search my face. 

"You are?" she asks me incuriously, while taking her gloves off her hands. 

"Why wouldn't I be?" I shrug. 

"No reason, just wanted to let you know that you'd be invited to the wedding is all" she says giving me her full attention. 

I could never attend watching them both walk down the aisle, especially when I'm also meant to be his 'wife' but clearly we're both not getting the same treatment. 

"It's written all over your face but your the only one denying it" she blurts out not being able to hold it in any longer. 

I let out a long sigh " I don't know what I'm feeling" I admit honestly.

"I don't know why I'm feeling anything that I am right now. Is it jealousy, anxious, frustrated or even love?" I rant to her walking around her in a circle.

"Besides it wouldn't make a difference what I felt or thought because clearly they both like each other" I mumble defeatedly.

"Sophia. From the moment I saw you there was something about you that made me like you more than any other girl and especially that witch in the house right now" she says honestly. 

"Your going to give up so easily? What happened to the girl that I knew? The determined one that wouldn't stop until she got what she wanted?" she says. 

I close my eyes trying to think of the answers to the questions. "I don't know, she's still here but doesn't know the answer to anything" I whisper. 

"It's okay it'll take some time to find the answers your looking for but you have to believe in yourself" she says before going into the house. 

Believe...?

I don't know if I can do that. 

Anyways the boys are probably going to come in a bit, I don't want to be in a gloomy mood when they come, so I'm going to watch Stranger Things.