Just For a Little Bit (On Hold)

For the plan, right?

All of a sudden, I jolt awake. I was panting heavily, and my heart was beating quickly. "Hey, are you alright?" Hope asks, sitting up also. "Y-yea, I'm..." I start, but that's when I feel an uncomfortable wetness between my legs. "I just need to use the bathroom" I finish, getting up and walking to the bathroom before she can say anything. I shut the door, and lock it. I lean against the counter, and take deep breaths, trying to get my heart to stop pounding. Though, it wouldn't slow down.

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get her out of my head. I think I'm starting to like her. That, or I already do. Fuck, this can't happen. She already said that there's no way we could have feeling for each other yet, which means that she doesn't. My eyes start to water, and I let out a shaky breath. "Josie?" she says, knocking on the door lightly a few times. "Are you feeling alright, sweetheart? Do you need something?" she asks. I let out a dry chuckle. "No, I'm fine" I lie.

For two reasons; she keeps calling me pet names, which I can't get enough of, and because I was just so close to haven't a wet dream about her while I was cuddling with her. She's driving me crazy. Absolutely crazy. I could still feel the pool in my underwear, so I pulled them down. I brought my hand down, and felt how wet I was. It's like a fucking water fall down there. God, what is she doing to me? While I was pulling my hand away, I accidentally brushed against my clit. I almost let out a moan.

I clean my self up, wash my hands, splash water on my face, then dry it off. With a sigh, I slowly open the door. She was still standing there, waiting for me. "I told you, I'm fine" I tell her. "I know, I just wanted to make sure" she replies. "Well, thank you for your concern" I say. She moved closer, and grabbed my hand gently. She starts soothingly rubbing her thumb over my knuckles, like she did earlier, which gives me butterflies for the second time today.

"Of course. Just let me know if you need anything, ok?" she tells me, smiling sweetly. I stared into her eyes silently for a few seconds. I feel like she knows exactly what she's doing right now. I couldn't help but to glance down at the lips I dream about kissing. Though, it was only for a split second. All I wanted was to reach my hand up, pull her in by the back of her neck, and kiss her. I was ready to risk it all. Though, I'm too cowardly to do so. Instead, I take a deep breath, and nod.

She gives me one last smile before she drops my hand, and walks away. With a sigh, I follow her back to the bed. I grab my phone, and see that it's only '4:19', which means we slept for about 4 and a half hours. "So, shall we start?" she asks, sitting down. "Hm?" I hum. "You said we had to get our stories straight and stuff" she explains. "Oh. Right" I mumble, getting in bed also. Though, I sit in front of her instead of next to her. I don't think I can handle being that close right now.

"How'd we meet?" I ask. "Um...I live in New Orleans, so we could say came to visit" she answers. "Why were you visiting?" I ask. "Because this is my family's hometown" she says. "Is it really?" I ask. "Yep" she answers. "Where'd we meet?" I ask. "The Mystic Grill. I thought you were cute, so I asked for your number. We texted for a day or two, then I asked you on a date. The date was amazing, so we wanted to go on another. Though, we couldn't" she answers.

"Why not?" I ask. "Because I had to leave the next day. But, we continued to text, and talk for another 2 ish months, then I came back to visit again, and we did the second date. Again, it was amazing. Perfect even. So perfect that I'd asked you to be my girlfriend that same night" she answers. "What was our first date?" I ask. "Just a simple dinner at a restaurant. We talked most of the time about random things, and after, I took you home" she answers. "And our second?" I ask.

She looks down, thinking about it. "A picnic in the park. I brought food, and drinks. We stayed until the sunset, and we watched the entire time. I told you that you were much more beautiful than it, and that I'd much rather watch you than it. I told you that I'd watch you forever if I could" she answers. That actually sounds really nice. Seems like the only way I can experience it, is if I dream it. "I-I think we should kiss" I blurt. "What?" she asks, her head snapping up and she looking at me.

"I think we should kiss" I repeat. "If people never see us kiss, they may think something's up. I-I just want to make sure the plan works" I add. She continues to stare without saying anything. It was making me feel...nervous, anxious, and so small. My heart was beating quicker than it ever has. "Never mind. Just forget I said anything" I tell her, starting to get up. She gently grabbed my arm, stopping me from getting off the bed. "No...I agree" she tells me. "You do?" I ask.

"Of course. For the plan, right?" she answers. "Yea, um...for the plan" I reply, looking down. "Sorry, did not you not mean right now?" she asks. I look up with my eyebrows furrowed. "Oh, right now?" I reply. "Well, we don't have to if you don't want to" she says. "No, I..." I start, though, I felt like I was getting a bit lightheaded. "I do, I just didn't...never mind. We're gonna do it then?" I finish. "Only if you give me consent" she tells me. I nod, though, I already know I'm gonna let her.

"You have my consent" I tell her. "Are you sure?" she asks, moving closer. As soon as I say "Yes", she brings her hand up to my face, and places it on my cheek. Though, she doesn't do anything yet. She only stares. "I'm gonna ask you one last time...are you sure you wanna do this?" she asks. "Yes, I'm sure" I tell her. She starts to slowly lean in, all the while still staring into my eyes. Eventually, I feel her lips softly press into mine.

Her lips are soft. Softer than I imagined. Though, I don't get to enjoy if for long, because someone walks in. "Hey, do you guys- oh my god" I hear. I immediately push her away, and look towards the door. "Mom. I can explain" I rush out. She's standing there, covering her eyes. "Please don't" she says. "No, it's not like that" I say. "It's not like what?" she asks. "We're not kissing like that. Like...it's not a romantic kiss" I answer. Finally, she uncovers her eyes.

"Then why are you kissing?" she asks. "Because she's helping me out" I answer. She furrows her eyebrows in confusion. "You remember my ex, Jade?" I ask. She gives a nod. "Well, she gets jealous, and a bit possessive all the time. That's besides the point, but Hope and I are in a fake relationship, so that I can she her that I've moved on, and so she can leave me alone" I explain. "Two things; that doesn't explain why you're kissing behind closed doors, and fake relationship or not, you're still kissing" she says.

"You..." she starts, pointing at Hope. "Are switching room with your sister. Got it?" she finishes. "Yes, ma'am" she replies. "Good. Now, what I came here for. Do you guys want pizza or Chinese food for dinner?" she asks. "Chinese" I answer. She nods, then turns to leave. She takes one step, then turns back around. "Leave the door open" she tells us. We both nod, and she leaves. With a groan, I fall back onto the bed. "Well, it was fun while it lasted" she jokes. "Shut up" I say, chucking a bit.

Though, it wasn't because she's funny. I felt her move a bit, then hover over me. She just stares silently for a little bit. Out of nowhere, she leans down and kisses me twice. The first one was just a peck, but the second lasted a few seconds. I wanted to pull her back in for another, but she'd already rolled over, so she was laying next to me. I felt her staring, so I turned my head. "What?" I ask. "Nothing" she says, though, she doesn't look away.

Then why are you staring?" I ask. "I can't stare?" she counters. "I didn't say that. I just want to know why you are" I answer. She goes back to staring silently. "I feel guilty" I tell her a few seconds later. "About what?" she asks. "About lying to my friends. They deserve to know, and I didn't tell them" I answer. "It's not too late to do so" she tells me. I turn my head, and look at the ceiling. "I can't" I start. "And it's not that I don't trust them, I just can't risk it" I finish.

"I understand. Tell them when you're ready" she says. "In the mean time..." she starts, getting off the bed. "I'm gonna go tell Faith the news" she finishes, grabbing her bag. I frown, then say "Don't leave me". She chuckles, then walks over to me. She kisses my cheek, then my forehead. "I'll be back later. Or I'll see you downstairs for dinner" she says. I put on my best pout, but she still leaves.