IN MY MIND...

Jealousy

Have you ever felt jealous?

Nagselos ka na ba before

... because your crush is with somebody else?

... because other people is in a good relationship than you?

... because your lover/suitor have found someone new after you reject them?

or simply, just because?

If you do

whatever the reason is, that's fine.

It's OK to feel that way once in a while

but of all the reasons that we have when we feel jealous,

 'yung hardest reason to accept is 'yung

we get jealous of the person we rejected

once na may nahanap na silang bago.

bakit?

maybe because we want to show them that we are strong enough to handle their absence.

that's why we deny this reason.

but the truth is that,

we get jealous when they found someone new dahil nasanay tayo sa presence at pangungulit nila.

tapos pag nawala sila,

hahanap hanapin mo 'yung nakasanayan mong attention

tapos makikita mo na lang na ginagawa niya na sa iba 'yung effort na dati sa'yo niya lang ginagawa;

binibigay niya na 'yung same amount ng attention sa iba na dati ay para sa'yo.

ang masaklap pa 'dun,

sometimes we choose to reject them not because we don't want them

but because you have a lot of personal reasons not to accept them.

reasons na some people don't believe in.

totoo nga 'yung line na "its not you, its me"

kase minsan, wala naman sa kanila 'yung problema.

Nasa sarili nating issues talaga.

So in the end, sayang talaga.

Kapag may iba na sila,

All you can feel after rejecting them is jealousy.

But a reminder na rin from me na isa ring marupok na mapride at the same time,

Choosing yourself over "that" person is not selfish.

If you have your reasons, that's fine and you don't need to feel sorry about that.

They should pursue you with rejection in mind because that's part of your choice.

They need to accept it.

Just don't make them feel played.

It is better to be honest and sincere to them

Para iwas misunderstanding na rin.

aaaaand,

it is ok to feel jealous

just don't let it become bitterness.

After all, maybe its a way for us to find the one.

'Di pa naman ata dead end.

Habang wala pa,

ikaw muna.

love yourself, fix your issues, build your broken heart,

and wait for the perfect timing.