I should've told this story first before the previous one. Kaso gusto ko kasing malaman niyo muna how I felt when that feeling of love came in.
Anyway, to make things short, he had his ex with him. Literal.
While things with us happens, he had his ex at his house. "So ano ako nung mga panahon na yun? Pampalipas oras?" That's what I thought nung nalaman ko yun.
He explained why and I don't even know how to process everything. Parang wala akong naririnig Ang naisip ko lang non, i feel like a trash. I gave in to someone without knowing such things. I don't know. And I don't know what to tell you.
After few days, we talked about it and guess what. I gave him a second chance. Reason ko? Ilang araw pa lang naman kami eh. And we don't even have a clear label (yet?) so who am I to pressure him up. So ayun, I let him fix things or to clarify things between him and his ex muna and I took the time to breathe and think about this situation.
Then finally, ok na. They got closures na rin. Disclaimer lang, I was not the main reason why they broke up. It's something else and this guy has a proof.
Kaso still, after ng break up nila, kahit inassure niya na ko na hindi ako for rebound, I feel like I still am. Nag ooverthink pa rin ako.
Ang dami kong gustong itanong sa kanya but I don't know how and where to start. Gusto kong itanong kung he still love his ex pero we just got into fight. Ayokong mafeel niya na everyday with me is catastrophy.
I am in so much pain right now. This is new to me. I don't know how to deal with it and I am becoming a different version of me.
Hopefully, sa mga susunod na araw, makakuha ako ng perfect timing to ask. Ayokong mag exist sa buhay niya for "fun", kasi I have reserved everything in me for love. And I gave that everything to him. To the person who I hated the most.
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IN MY MIND...
RandomThis is just all about me. Not the typical story that you are looking for. But if you are curious, this is an open diary. Feel free to read :)
