Love me 'Til it Hurts

Chapter 30 - Confessions; Part Two.

Jensen Ackles...

Waking up with Rayne tucked against my body was quickly becoming the favourite part of my day. Hell, it was the perfect start to my day. It instantly put me in a good mood, it released this wave of consuming need that I seemed unable to deny, or even fight. Waking her up with my tongue sliding through her hot slick folds was a head rush unlike any I have ever had with anyone.

The little mewling sounds she made. The gradual buck of her hips against my face was like a fucking direct stroke of my cock that rose so quickly I had been left dizzy. The feel of her hands gripping my hair and tugging was enough to make me almost blow my load like some prepubescent asshole. The quiver in her thighs propelled me to eagerly fuck her with my tongue so slowly but forcefully that she was screaming my name before her back arched completely off the bed as if some sort of demon was possessing her body.

Rayne was my Goddess. And I worshipped at her altar every damn chance I got.

I had lost her once. I had let her get away. I had watched her pack up her things and flee town. It had broken something inside me. Something that had never recovered until she breezed back into my life. The first sight of her put me back together. The first smile from her brought a renewed and eager beat to my heart. The first sound of her voice was like a stroke to my dick, and I was instantly harder than I had ever been in my life. The first inhale of her scent had the memories rushing at me so quick and hard it almost brought me to my knees at her feet.

I have never loved a woman the way I love Rayne. The way I have always loved her. All women after her were compared to the one woman I wanted more than I wanted air to breathe, and I guess that was why none of them ever lasted very long. No one could live up to my first, and only, love.

I hated that she was away from me tonight. I ached to just get in my car and go back to the girl's house and hoist her over my shoulder and drag her back to my cave like some primitive caveman. God, I need to get a Goddamn fucking grip on myself. It's one night. I can survive one night. Plus, I will be seeing her first thing in the morning anyway.

Cal, Jeremy, and I were going back over in the morning so we could make a start on the painting before the girls had the chance to unpack too much. They wanted it all done so that when they unpacked, they wouldn't have to keep moving furniture to accommodate the painting. It was practical and totally a girl, move. Men weren't as practical when it came to these things.

"What are we doing for food?" Cal asked, helping himself to a beer from the fridge and grabbing for both Jeremy and I in the process.

"Pizza?" I suggested.

"Yeah, works for me!" Cal nodded and we both looked at Jeremy who seemed a little occupied.

I don't know what is going on with my oldest friend but lately he has been distracted, and happy. It wasn't hard to miss the way he always seemed to have a grin plastered to his face. I suspect he has a new girlfriend - not something that he has ever really had before. Don't get me wrong, my friend has never been short of bed-mates but he never really partook in anything more than a couple of nights at most.

This was clearly a new venture for him, and it was having a very obvious effect on him. One that I had picked up on almost instantly. Whoever had put that grin on his face and that spring in his step, definitely got my vote.

"Remy?" Cal waved his hand at my friend.

"Fuck, sorry, what?"

"Pizza for dinner?"

"Yeah, sure!" He nodded, taking the beer that Cal was holding out to him. There was a pointed look from my little sister's boyfriend to my best friend and it seemed to snap him out of the thoughts that were distracting him, "so Jay, how are things with Ray-Ray?"