Love me 'Til it Hurts

Chapter 31 - Betrayal

Back at The Girls House...
Rayne Saunders...

You could have bowled me over with a feather at Juliette's confession. Of all the things that I thought were going on, it certainly never crossed my mind that it was a polyamorous relationship.

Even here in Dallas, where I have seen all manners of relationships, polyamory was not something that I had ever come across. Of course, I knew there was a whole scene that I knew nothing about, and Juliette had always loved her reverse harem romances, so if anyone was going to experiment with the notion, it was definitely my best friend.

Am I concerned? Maybe a little because for me, I simply can't wrap my head around how three people can make a relationship work, I mean there is a reason for the saying; two is company and three is a crowd. However, that being said - I can't deny the happy aura that my friend has had around her for the past couple of weeks, not to mention the fact that Jensen had mentioned the same about Jeremy. Whatever it was, it clearly worked for them and honestly, who the Hell am I to pass judgement on something that three grown adults have all consented to?

"So, how does it work, in the bedroom?" I asked genuinely interested because damn, one dick in bed was more than enough for me.

"You know it should have been awkward, at least at first but it has never once been awkward having them both there. It is almost as if from the get-go we were all in sync with one another -"

"Do Cal and Jeremy-"

"No. Never. They are always conscious of the other, but they are always completely focused on me - double the touching, double the kissing, double the pleasure," she was grinning now, like the damn Cheshire cat.

For so long this girl has been miserable, waiting, her life permanently on hold, as she waited for Jeremy to come home. Getting involved with Cal was not something that she had done lightly - even to the point where she once told him that, like the Meatloaf song - she would want him, need him but she'd never love him. It wasn't meant to be callous as some might assume - it was just Juliette being as open and honest as she could be because she has always despised lies. I think that is why the whole thing with Jeremy was so hard on her.

Keeping it from Jensen had taken its toll on her. I knew that better than most. I had seen the impact of losing Jeremy on her and while, I may believe she has let him off to hook far too quickly, who am I to judge? This is Juliette's life, and she has to do what makes her comfortable and happy because she has waited so damn long to really start living.

"And how was the sex?" I asked, grabbing my glass of wine from the table we had made out of the moving boxes.

"It was - Cal was so generous. I swear, that man stepped aside and let me have the one thing I have always craved-"

"He willingly allowed Jeremy to be your first?" I was shocked.

Not because Cal was particularly selfish because I knew without a shadow of a doubt that the man was one of the most selfless people I have ever met, no what surprised me was the fact that he and Jeremy seemed to be far tighter than I had noticed. To willingly step aside and let another man take his girl's virginity, well that was a sacrifice that screamed undying love and ultimate respect.

Cal and I have grown close, that is no lie, and during our bonding he has shared a lot about his home life and how that shaped him into the man he is. Seeing the way his own father ridiculed and abused his mother had shaped Cal into the man that my best friend was in love with. I can't even imagine what that type of exposure does to a kid. I mean I have seen the way that Cal respects all women – which is something that honestly, could have easily gone the other way; with a terrible, abusive bully as a male role model, it wouldn't have been a shock if Cal had turned out the same. The fact that he hasn't turned out like his father is something that makes him one of a kind. Just look at how he stood up for me against my ex! I knew that was a debt I would never be able to repay.