Wolfstar oneshots// Vol 2

How it should have been

Hi!! Happy pride month!! This is v long (well for me anyways) so probably read it when you have time. Uh, fluff? Angst? Idk this is just me trying to give myself what I wanted to happen. Enjoy!!

Remus wasn't entirely sure that he was living. Everyday seemed to pass him by, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. They all meant nothing to him. One moment it was monday morning and he was getting up for work and the next moment it was Sunday night and he was dreading the next day. He constantly felt as if he was doing things robotically. He didn't know how to make it stop. How long had this been going on? The day after he found out about Lily and James' death? Or several days later when Sirius was thrown in Azkaban for betraying them?

Remus got up and walked down the stairs of his small cottage. He paused at the bottom when he saw his cat, and he leaned down to pet Stella gently. She meowed and he walked to the kitchen and put some food for her in her bowl. He went to make himself a cup of coffee and paused momentarily as a memory hit him.

"Hi moony." Sirius said as he wrapped an arm around his waist, "sleep good?"

Remus groaned and nuzzled into his pillow, "t'early." He heard Sirius laugh lightly at that and he felt his own cheeks warm. He was sure that he would never get used to him.

Sirius kissed his shoulder, "you can't sleep forever moons."

"Why not?"

"I'd miss you too much."

Remus grinned to himself and turned around. He cupped Sirius' face gently with both hands and admired how beautiful Sirius looked in the late morning light. How warm and gentle he looked.

"Hi." Sirius said softly and leaned into Remus' hands.

"Hi love." Remus said, then he leaned in and pressed a kiss to his cheek. He wanted to stay in this moment forever. With Sirius, in their bed, with the light coming in gently through the curtains and the air warm enough that they could just be.

Remus wished he couldn't remember. He wished he could forget how much he loved him. He wished he could just forget and hate him. It would be so much easier to hate him. No matter, he didn't have time for this. He grabbed his favorite mug and turned to the monotony of his every day life to drown his thoughts out.

A few hours later and Remus walked out of his house and started walking to the supermarket. He breathed in the fresh air and watched the people around him go about their normal days. It made him feel better. To be outside and not alone with his thoughts. It was easier to wonder where the gentleman with the flowers in his hands was going than to think about ... well.

He walked into the shop and grabbed his shopping basket, stopping by the dairy section to grab some cheese. He heard the sound of a shopping trolley grating against the floor and was immediately transported back to fifth year.

"Woah." Sirius said as he looked at the building, "a real muggle supermarket!" He paused and turned to Remus curiously, "what makes it super? Do they have magic in there?"

Remus laughed, "there's nothing super about it. The only magic you'll find in there is the cheap chocolate."

James saw the row of shopping trolleys and gasped. "Padfoot. come with me."

The two boys went racing to the trolleys and Remus could only hear glimpses of their conversation. He wasn't even a little bit surprised when James came running down the road with Sirius in the trolley. He pulled his camera from his bag and took a picture.

"Idiots." Peter said and Remus nodded in agreement. A slight pause and then he said, "We can't let them have all the fun. Race you there!"

Minutes later and Remus was racing down the road with Peter in the trolley. He could feel the wind in his hair and the sound of his heart beating. He could feel the wide smile on his face and the smell of freedom in the air. It felt good. Like everything he'd ever wanted but never thought he deserved to have.