Late night thoughts

{Trigger Warning}

⚠️ This rant might be triggering to some readers it has mentions of satuatory rape, sexual assult, abuse, etc. I advise you to click out of this story if it might be triggering for you. ⚠️

    Okay so does anyone remember how in Elementary school we had to take a "test" which was just you checking a yes or no box. There was a question on the paper saying "has someone touched you inappropriately?" But before they handed this sheet out, you'd have to sit through an hour long seminaur, explaing what sexual assult was. They wouldn't give you the word for it until years later in health class.

   Why don't you do it for older grades huh? Do you even do it anymore? Are we not worth a little bit of your time?

   While I'm on the topic, the people who do try to help in that situation have to wait on CPS. And CPS has to do a whole ass evaluation before they can do shit. Do you know how fucking stupid that is? If someone is being abused and you go and try to do an evaluation, you're gonna fuck everything up and make it worse for the kid. AND if someone is being sexually assulted in a house, you need to get them out of there fast or else it'll get a whole lot worse for them. Like do you seriously not care at all?

   Because I can gurantee that you're doing nothing but making it worse. It puts us in danger.

   And then there are people that try to speak up but are shut down with the words of "Oh quit lying p/n would never do that" like are you serious? The child is trying to tell you something important. And then that person that told the child that will go on and tell the abuser what the kid said. It makes it worse. And then when the truth comes out the people are like, "Why didn't you tell us?" They fucking tried, but no one believed them.

   We need better systems, if you can't do your job the correct way and see that a child is being abused then you don't need to be working that job. But if CPS really needs to see that a person is being abused, go under-fucking-cover. Because this is getting ridiculous.

   There are kids that try to get help and then CPS gets involved and makes it worse. But then they find nothing and leave. So the kid is left in the ass of a house and gets abused more. So they commit suicide. And I don't fucking blame them. I would too. Hate me all you want for saying that but fact still stands you would too if you had to go through that.

   People always make fun of others for self harming themselves, but do they ever stop to think "maybe they do this for a reason"? No because they don't care. They just want to be assholes. And then the people who "care" tell someone and then CPS comes in. They find nothing wrong and suggest a mental asylum.

   I can tell you a mental asylum might be better than that abusive household but most likely not. Because there are people nowadays that rape the patients. And those patients tell, but nobody believes them. They don't even care to look at the cameras to make sure. Then once that rapist goes back to work they do it again, and again, and again, it doesn't stop it's a never-ending cycle with them, until they get caught and put away.

   I hate the CPS system and I always will, they don't do anything.

   For the kids that have to go through this, I'm terribly sorry.. You are an angel in disguise and deserve so much better. Those fuckers who did that to you are going to hell. Please don't turn out like them, you are so much better than them. I'm here day AND night if you need to talk. You are loved, and you are enough. Stay strong precious angels.