I'm hurting
Senseless
The more he hits me
The more I like it
The more it makes life seem real
I never asked for this
He acts like its a gift
For a while I believed him
Until it started to get bad
Until it got noticeable
I always thought
Why me?
Is it because I'm easy to control?
I don't know anymore
Maybe it's because I let it happen
I let him do what he wants to me
Because he made me feel special
For a little while
I felt I needed to thank him
For noticing me
But I was wrong
This isn't right
But I can't put up a fight
