As she sits there
She runs her fingers through her hair
She's been up most the night
It's just not right
She looks so scared
He's not prepared
For her deep dark side
She shouldn't have to hide
All the suffering and pain
It's been driving him insane
He wants to know
He wants to show
That he can help
But she keeps it to herself
Keeps it on a shelf
Under lock and key
Why can't anyone see
She won't tell, to preserve his life
So she hides the knife
Till he goes back to sleep
Doesn't make a peep
And slowly fades into a world full of bright lights and black walls
No such thing as bathroom stalls
She finally gets to tell him
Except now without words
This time with a letter and a sword
She doesn't stick around for the hate
She jumps into another state
Where he died
She'll see him and make everything right
There will be no need to fight
He'll understand quite fine
She finally crossed the line
The same as he had done
It had not been fun
She finds him at the church
Leaning up against a big birch
He's as beautiful as ever
It's been ten years and she still can't remember
He'd said they'd be forever
She can't stand it
It just doesn't fit
She goes to turn away
Nothing to say
But he's there
And it just isn't fair
Her knees feel weak
Like they have been all week
His voice breaks into the void
'No no no. This is my fate, not yours. You can't be here.'
All she can see is fear
Built in his eyes
No more lies
'But I love you'
'And I love you, but I need you to go back.'
Looking at him now
She let her emotions flow
He wants her to go
But she won't say goodbye
He takes her hand
'Oh how I've missed you, but you don't belong here.'
She nods her head in agreement
She can see the sentiment
Guilt flashes across his face
He was the one that brought her to this place
'I just wanted to tell you one last time that it was not your fault, it was mine. Now it's time to say goodbye.'
Suddenly she can feel herself being pulled
Back to where she belongs
As she returns to her skin
How stupid she could of been
Her eyes are closed
But she can hear footsteps and she feels exposed
He's here
No more hiding
No more fear
As she opens her eyes, the light is blinding
She hears the beeping of her heart rate
And knows it's not too late
'Is this what was wrong?' he asked
'I just wanted to see him again.'
He nods his head knowingly and gives her a sympathetic look
'You know you usually don't get a lot of chances in life. Please be careful, we don't live in a fantasy book.'
'Is he ok at least?'
'He's the same old cocky loser.'
She lied to him and herself that day
Trying to shield herself from the pain she would convey
He slowly fades into the air
All she can do is stare
Until he's gone
Then she knows
As she drifts into sleep she hears him shout
'Is anybody out there?'
She doesn't answer
Knowing the truth
They both died that day
And so did her heart, nothing more to say
