They say the past makes us stronger,
Teaches us lessons,
Provides examples of the real world.
But the only past that taught me anything,
Was our past.
You and me,
Fighting against the world.
You taught me to be strong,
Not to change for anyone.
But I changed after you left,
I had to,
Because you were apart of my old life
And I couldn't bare the burden anymore.
I was done with you.
I was ready to say goodbye to you,
That meant saying goodbye to my old life too.
I guess I have only you to thank,
I like the new and improved me.
I'm confident,
I can talk to guys,
I'm not shy,
I can stand up for myself,
I'm happy,
And most importantly I realize now that I can't let people push me around.
I needed to stop caring about people that didn't care about me.
I needed to let go,
Relax,
Have a good time.
Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like without you,
But I feel like I would have been the same depressed teenager I was before you left.
I'm not proud of the mistakes I've made since you left,
I turned into someone my mom didn't even recognize.
I'm sorry mom.
I always will be.
I wanted to die.
I wanted to take the final step out of this awful world.
Alex and Kyle, I almost broke our promise,
I couldn't feel more sorry.
We'll meet again some day,
Just not yet,
I don't think I'm ready yet.
Alex buddy I miss ya,
You were the only one that got me and you left before we planned and it hurt,
It hurt so bad.
Because it was partially my fault,
I was the one that found you.
I'm so sorry.
