secret BROKEN soul (R.V.V.D)

Chapter 20- 5 Years later

RUEL POV:

it's been 5 years since we became family again and a lot has happened.

I'm now 23 (had mateo at 18 COUNT ON FINGERS) and Oakley and I now had 2 kids Mateo being 5 and our newest Tatum being newly born practically so I can now have a full experience this time only problem is during Oakley's pregnancy she got cancer and we had only found out after because the pregnancy had covered it up ( this does happen ) and so now we are a little late for the treatments and if she where to get them shed have to go to someplace else in this world to get them so she said no and is going to spend as much time as she can with me and the kids although it's not what I want and I had all the money in the world practically and I could get this sorted like that (click of a finger) she didn't want it so its the harsh reality of life ( no this book) but we get through it slowly.

a year after I proposed to Oakley we got married and we had been travelling with mateo around the world for like 2 years when we stopped to settle back down and have another kid and now we were all in the pool having fun like a normal family Oakley had been falling down a hole since the cancer was diagnosed but I had been helping well trying to and she has been trying to push it away but that won't lasts very long.

the doctor says she only got a couple months a year max because of how far along cancer had been and she was even lucky to have Tatum which was a scary thing to hear but ever since that day of being told I never took my eyesight or mind off of her and I was so scared that she could just disappear in the night or in that day I was petrified to be doing this all on my own.

oakley and holly came up with a plan that for when things go downhill and I'm on my own that she and her kids will move in with me and help me out with it and luckily I was ok with that because I had no feelings about what so ever towards her even tho Oakley said it would be ok if I did because she would be gone and she would want me to be happy but I didn't like holly like that and I don't think I ever will even when Oakley is gone.

our days had been going so slow since everything especial this one and I didn't feel right about it.

" hey, how are you feeling today bub," I said holding Tatum and side hugging Oakley in the water " yea I feel ok I mean a little sick in the stomach but other than that I'm ok," she said even tho she wasn't she was dying " ok " was all I could respond to these days it like I had lost my words "how are you feeling I know your dressed tired and sore and everything so how are you holding up," she said looking up at me but I wasn't my concern "I'm fine I promise ok," I said knowing I wasn't but I didn't want to make her feel like shit any less than she already did " holly's coming over with her kids so they can come swim is that ok," she asked randomly " yea when is it not," I said smiling at her and she nodded and starts to run with mateo in her arms and I did the same with Tatum she was so cute or kids were everything I was so happy to me we had a perfect life.

I had the perfect house the perfect wife the perfect kids i was happy and so was the rest of my family everything was in place it felt so right.

holly had just come over and she was looking after Tatum and mateo in the pool (mateo can swim now so it was ok ) while I went to go check on Oakley as she had been gone for a while I checked our room and heard something coming from the bathroom so I knocked on the door and spoke " hey baby it's just me can I come in" I said and I didn't get a response so I opened the door and she was sitting there in tears throwing up blood I immediately picked her up and took her to the car giving her a towel so she could throw up and clean her self up with it, as I was driving I called holly ( i know not safe) and told her what was going on on the way to the hospital.

we got there and she went straight into emergency care and then I was told that she was going into surgery to see what was happening inside of her and how her cancer was. I was waiting in the waiting room for hours I couldn't even tell the time anymore when someone tapped on my shoulder and I jumped and stood up, it was holly she mateo and tatum was with her kids i just hugged her and then sat back down taking mateo ,her soon following .

2hours later

i was just starting to nod off as holly had already did so when i had been awaken by someone yelling out my full name."RUEL VINCENT VAN DIJK" i just stood up and and was now fully awake "can i have a word with you please" he said and started to walked and just followed not saying anything " this is going to be hard um she is awake but only will be for a little while longer her time is very short we have given her painkillers and numbing medication so she wont be in any pain in the chest or stomach and when she passes it will be like sleeping ,um you can go in and spend your last moments with her im so so sorry if you need us just press the button hey one more thing she doesn't know shes in her last stages so again im sorry " was all he said and led us into to the room i let out a couple tears not many as i had mateo with me and i didn't want to cry in front of him.

i had sat down next to her in the chair and mateo was just sitting on the bed holding her hand and telling her about his day like it was norm i was just quietly crying letting the tears steam my face when oakley looked at me and spoke " oh no ruel baby don't don't its going to be ok im ok I'll be outta here in no time " i had completely forgot she had no clue she was about to leave this cruel world and our family so i just smiled still with tears and spoke " yea yea i know im just really happy your ok how are you feeling at them moment though?" i asked not wanting this moment and her life to end " yea no i feel normal well what it felt like before the cancer im just a bit tired that's all " the pit in my stomach kept growing yet i was happy she felt like her normal self again yet it wasn't really what she had going on as she couldn't feel it, mateo kept talking to her and i noticed her getting more and more drouzy and her eyes kept flutering trying to stay open i also noticed the doctors and nurses waiting outside and i had realised she was about to go " alright mateo lets lets say goodbye to uh mummy " i said holding his hand and her eyes closed and i went to pick up mateo but he spoke " mummy mummy wake up i still have to say goodbye to you mummy mummy please wake up please" he said and i just balled my eyes out in pain and how i couldn't get him to come with me he started to cry and i just picked him up and held him tightly and spoke " hey that was a hug from mummy here here's another one " i said holding the back of his head and his ait tightly crying as well i then let go of his head and held her cold hand and said goodbye and ran out the door and it felt like slow-motion holly was now awake and i just gave mateo to her and dropped to the floor crying and wanting to break and scream at everything in this cruel world, i soon felt arms around and and at first it felt like oakley " oakley ?" i questioned as everything was blurry and wanted it to be a dream.

no no its coco ruel its coco" it was coco and i was so happy she was here right now i didn't even care how she found me or why she was here at this time but i was in so much pain and grieving that i wanted her to stay with me forever as i new i wasn't going to be able to dig myself out of the hole i was about to creat because oakley was gone...

AUTHOR NOTE:

( i hope you enjoyed my first ever book i didn't want to add an authors note on every chapter as i didn't think it was nesercary and i didtn have anything to say, so let me know what you think don't worry i will have more books soon im starting to write a new one as we speak ( well i type) so i hope your edited for the next one love you all :cheye.)