A Wife's Sorrow [To Be Publish Under PIP)

Chapter 7

"I'LL tell you once she's awake! Mamita, please, We can't keep this to Sonia!"

"Alam mong masasaktan sya Bhea! My daughter...she never deserve this..."

"We can't prolong the pain, Mamita. Sonia needs to know. Besides, it's partly my fault. I didn't tell her right away na may tumubong fabriouds sa matres nya na naging myoma."

"What..."

Nagising ako sa ingay ng paligid pero hindi muna ako dumilat. I recalled what happened earlier and tears immediately pooled my eyes. My body felt numb and my heart is aching, literally.

"Call a cardiologist, Samuel."

"So you mean...simula umpisa ng pagbubuntis nya, there's already a hindrance?"
I heard Eros' voice.

Malalim ang buntong hininga ni Bea, sinamahan ng mahinang paghikbi ni Mamita.
"During the first check-up, may mga nakikita na akong maliliit na fabriods but usually, natatanggal rin naman yun. But during the third check-up, that's when I noticed something...the fabriods grew fast at halos palibutan ang matres ni Sonia. Humina ang kapit ng bata kaya dinagdagan ko ng pangpa kapit ang vitamins nya but I didn't tell you guys because I don't want you stressed, lalo na si Sonia."

Hindi ko na pinatagal at unti-unti na akong dumilat. The tears that pooled my eyes was already about to give up.

Mabilis na tumayo si Mamita at dumalo sa'kin. Eros went to my side too, and held my hand tightly. His eyes are hooded and tired.

Tuyo ang lalamunan ko at wala pa akong sapat na lakas para bumangon pero kaya ko naman sigurong makapag salita. Tiningnan ko si Bhea na halatang naiiyak. Nangingitim ang ilalim ng mga mata nya at mukhang hindi nakatulog. She's wearing a Doctor's robe at may hawak na clipboard.

Panandaliang natahimik ang buong silid. Si Samuel ay nasa may pinto, tanggal ang tatlong butones ng damit at naka halukipkip.

Mamita interrupted the silence by clearing her troat. Hinaplos nya ang buhok ko at pilit na ngumiti.
"How are you feeling?"
Banayad nyang tanong. Inalis ko ang tingin sa kanya at muling tumingin kay Bhea.

"M-my baby?" My voice shook and my tears fell. Suminghap si Mamita sa gilid at hindi nakaimik.

"I don't want to prolong this-"

"Bhea-"

"Sonia, I'm sorry but you lose the baby."

Parang niyanig ang mundo ko sa narinig. Hot tears blurred my vision kasabay ng paghikbi ni Mamita. Hindi ko naman makita ang reaksyon ni Eros dahil nakay Bhea parin ang paningin ko, nag-aantay ng karugtong sa sinabi nya.

She probably got the sign, so she continued.

"You have myoma, and the baby was greatly affected by it. Also, you're stressed. Naging dahilan rin yun kung bakit humina ang kapit...at tuluyang malaglag."
She whispered the last sentence.

Eros gripped my hand so tight, at ng bumaling ako sa kanya, sapo sapo na nya at sariling bibig at nagpipigil ng luha.

"I....I was about to tell you after the launching but...this happened...i guess I'm too late."
Halong pagsisisi na ang boses nya sabay yuko.
"I'm sorry, it was partly my fault. I didn't tell you earlier, we could've save the baby...or not. In order to remove the myoma, you need to undergo a surgery since taking tablets can affect the baby. But if we ever perform a surgery while you're pregant, it will be too risky as well. So eitherway....you will still lose your baby."

"Now that she already had miscarriage, what are we going to do with her myoma?"
Tanong ni Mamita na hindi ko halos marinig dahil sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman.