A Wife's Sorrow [To Be Publish Under PIP)

Chapter 8

"I'LL handle the operation then. But it should be as soon as possible. We are not in rush, but to prevent serious complications we must remove the fibroids. If this develops into a submocusal fibroids, she'll experience  serious bleeding and much worst symptoms." the Doctor explained.

Everyone is silent, including Tita Hera. Eros is on my side, and seems like he got something on his mind  dahil tulala lang, at kanina pa walang kibo. He changed his shirt, but the pants he wore yesterday was still the same. Mukhang hindi sya umuwi ng bahay para maligo.

Inalis ko ang tingin sa kanya. I've decided. I'll get the surgery next week.  As much as I want to heal myself, that would still be impossible. This is an open wound that would never heal 'till death. A spiritual scar deep into my soul.

"I want my daughter to recover from the trauma first...bago sya isa-ilalim sa operasyon. Is it okay if we schedule the surgery two months after?"

"I'll get the surgery next week." sabat ko.

They all turned their heads on me. Arko ang kilay ni Mamita at mukha namang hindi sang-ayon si Dada. Samuel's serious and Bhea doesn't look pleased as well.

"Sonia," Eros warned, pero hindi ko sya pinansin.

"Next week!" Mamita exclaimed.

Alam kong hindi sila sang ayon sa gusto ko pero nasa akin parin ang huling salita. I want the surgery as soon as possible dahil pakiramdam ko kapag naantala pa ito ng ilang buwan, wala na ako sa tamang pag-iisip.

Dr. Castillo sighed and massaged his temple.
"I'd like to talk to the patient alone. Empty the room, please."

Napaigtad si Bhea at parang tutang sumunod kaagad sa sinabi ng Doctor. She even dragged Mamita out, and Daddy followed them. Umalis naman sa pagkakasandal sa dingding si Samuel at tuluyang lumabas.

Tita Hera and her Husband silently followed my parents outside. Si Eros nalang ang natira at mukhang wala yatang balak lumabas.

The serious look of Doctor Castillo told me that he's beyond professional. I heard he's the head surgeon here. However, he looked too young for the job. I wonder if he accelerated on his studies?

"Give me thirty minutes."

It seems like the Doctor uses a bro code dahil dahan dahan nang tumayo si Eros bago ako pinatakan ng magaang halik sa noo.

"I'll buy you food."

And just like that, I was left alone with Doctor Castillo on my side. Sinarado nya ang pinto bago kumuha ng silya at ipinuwesto sa tabi ko. He sighed, and took off his glasses, revealing his serious, brown orbs.

He took off his Doctor's coat as well and hanged it on his chair's backrest.

Tinitigan ko lang sya. I honestly don't know the reason why he has to talk to me alone, but I supposed it has something to do with my sudden decision?

"I'll get the surgery next week."
Ulit ko. Incase mag attempt syang baguhin ang desisyon ko.

Surprsingly, hindi sya tumutol. Naka tanggap lang ako ng marahang tango at seryosong tingin.

"I won't try to change your mind, don't worry. I understand, actually. However, your decision might lead to regrets if you won't think about this thoroughly. We will remove your ovaries. That means, you won't be able to bear a child anymore. Are you ready for that?"

His question caught me off guard.

Am I ready?

Never.

Mahirap para sakin, lalo na kay Eros.

I looked away as tears pooled my vision. This pain...is agonizing. I don't think I will still be able live the rest of my life, knowing that I am incapable of bearing a child. That I was incapable of building a family with Eros.