Violet
I needed to think. I needed to be alone without any interruptions to think. I swam fast, crashing into waves and holding my growing belly at every lull of the ocean. I burst into a secret cove that I had held onto for years, though my visits had been brief during the last year. Tears broke loose, barricading my surroundings. I heaved and sobbed as my hand found the rocky vanity that I once looked upon daily. How had I let my life come to this? How had I married the completely wrong person and let him destroy my life. How had I missed so many signs from him and those around me? Had I been so desperate for comfort in the way of a partner that I had let it all slide? And Esmeralda... Esmeralda had been living close enough to me this whole time and I didn't even realize, much less think about the fact that she could have been sending spies to ruin me.
My stomach jerked and my hand flew to it instinctively. "I'm so sorry that I'm bringing you into a world like this." Tears continued to fall, rolling down my protruding stomach. "It seems I have missed a lot of details of the people around us and for that I am sorry, little one. My promise to you is that I will pay more attention to detail and to the people that I actually let around us. That all starts with your father..." I trailed off as a voice interrupted me, causing me to nearly jump out of my skin.
"Violet?" I spun around to meet the male voice, hoping with every inch of my being that it wasn't Louie. It wasn't. The face that met mine, was the sweetest face that I would welcome in any instance . That was before I remembered the reason that he wasn't here with me to begin with. "Jameson." I stuttered, not really sure if this could be real. He didn't have wings, nor did he appear as fairie-like as he did when I had last made contact with him - during the war. "How... How are you here? And where are your wings?" I blurted, still not knowing if this was a figment of my imagination. "You look so beautiful, glowing life." he mused, ignoring my questions and taking me back to a time when I believed in love and respectful men. He reached out to touch my cheek and I instantly felt little fish fluttering in my stomach. Wait, no. They were little fins. I was pregnant. The sudden realization of what time I was in snapped me out of it. I was pregnant and married, and just because I was in the middle of a crisis and possibly had a fraud of a husband, didn't mean I could let a former flame sweep me off my tail. "What are you doing here?" I blinked repeatedly, trying to both figure out this strange occurrence and bring myself to reality.
"I came to find you." He picked up my hands, gazing at my full belly and smiling uncontrollably. He was truly in awe and it was making it hard for me to resist him.
If he had arrived when I first started my relationship with Louie, I would have had no hesitation in sending him away, but now he seemed like a sweet escape. "But why?"
"Because I realized that life without you isn't a life at all. I should have gone with you when I had the chance instead of resisting you. And now... I fear I may be too late. I hope not though..." His eyes remained on mine.
"Jameson... I'm married and I'm expecting a baby. What could you offer me?" A single tear fell from my eye as I realized that he could probably offer me more happiness than I could ever have with Louie, but I couldn't admit that without admitting I had failed. In my search for love, all I had found was loneliness. And Jameson and I were like ships passing through the night. Maybe our timing was just off and the relationship I could have had with him, a missed opportunity. He wiped the tear away with a large finger and I resisted the urge to place my hand on his as it rested on my cheek. "Are you saying you have full happiness and everything you could have ever dreamed of with your husband?" his eyes were now on my lips, sending my cheeks red. I had to squeeze my hands into fists to fight the urge to run them through his hair and kiss him wildly. The more I thought of my relationship with Louie, the more I wanted to accept Jameson back into my life and run away to a happy place where we could be each other's happily ever after. "No." I whispered, instantly regretting that I had exposed myself.
