This is a continuation of the previous shot but can be read as a standalone too. This is a message written by Naina to Shivaay after his death. Please read it and tell me our thoughts.
Dearest Pa,
It has been 15 days since you went far away from me and ma. I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes. I saw you closing your eyes and never opening them again. I saw Ma losing herself as her world had collapsed. Om chachu and Rudra chachu also looked quite lost. Pa, you shouldn't have gone. No one is happy here ever since you left.
I have so many complaints against you and so many questions I want the answers to. But I know that all of them will disappear if I see you in front of my eyes, smiling your best and most genuine smile and opening your arms wide for me to jump into them.
Pa, they say that death is quite painful and I saw you going through that pain as you were taking your last breaths. But the pain that our hearts went through after that was even greater. I remember dadi telling me a story about ganpati bappa and how he loves small children and always listens to them. And yet, he didn't listen to me when I prayed earnestly to him for making you come back to me and ma. He called you to him leaving me and ma alone.
I know that I shouldn't be complaining to you but I have no one to whom I can complain to. Ma has become very reserved and she doesn't talk to dadi-dadu, badi dadi- bade dadu, and pardadi much and doesn't allow me also to go to them. Did they do something wrong?
In the middle of this, I am scared. Very scared, actually. I feel your absence every minute. I just don't tell ma about this because I fear that she will break down more. She understands me but the way she hugs me tightly when we try to sleep makes me aware of her fear. She dreads losing me too. But I promise you I will never leave her alone and go. She will never feel the way she did after you left.
Om chachu, Rudy chachu, Bhavya chachi, and Gauri maasi also look forlorn most of the time. But, I will make them happy too. You always said that your Nayu makes everyone around happy with her smile and I will do that. You tried to make everyone happy and comfortable na. Your Nayu will also do that.
I miss you pa. I wish you were here with me. You had promised me so many things. You remember you told me that this year on my birthday, you will take me to the new amusement park. And a bicycle when I score good marks in maths. Then about this month only, you were going to prepare our favorite aloo-puri. Ab yeh sab kaun karega pa?
Aapko pata hai, ma doesn't let anyone other than herself and me touch your suits. Woh kehti hai hai unn mein abhi bhi aapki khusbhu hai. She feels your presence. And honestly, mujhe bhi unko haath laga kar aapki yaad aati hai.
I don't know why I am writing this letter to you. But there was so much I had to tell you. You know how I am like you. Zyada apni feelings share nahi kar paati. You always understood me even when I couldn't express myself. And now, I write to you because I know you will understand this time as well.
I am trying hard but am terribly missing you. Aap yaha hotey toh you would have never let me cry. You would have picked me up in your arms and twirled me around, tickled me till I laughed. You always understood what I was feeling, without me telling you. Isliye toh aap sabse special ho.
Aaj, I found your watch in my cupboard. I remembered how a few days back, you had come home from office and I was searching for some book. Seeing my exasperation, you had hurriedly left your watch and helped me find my book. And then you started playing with me so you forgot about it. The truth is no one knows about the watch and I will carry it with me humesha. Woh aapka hai and isliye woh mere se kabhi dur nahi jayega.
