Inner Space

Everything and nothing

Sometimes I feel like you're far away, other times I feel like I've stepped into your shoes and lived other realties in your world.
I never imagined I'd get to be this lucky, having someone who genuinely cares around, and feeling the weight of disappointment and disapproval fall away. Last night I felt like a whimpering coward, my stomach ached and I spilt water on myself and I cried and you just held me and your words inside. I secretly worried later that maybe seeing me in those ways will drive you away. You've made it clear to me that you are here. I somehow wonder how I got so lucky. Everything about you makes me glow inside, the smiles and laughs we have make me feel like I'm flying, and I never want this to go away.
We'll get to wherever we need to be. I'll stop saying how much I hate my reality cause with you it's still exactly what I need. I don't like everyone and everything but I'm learning how to cope and make the most of things that I don't know. "In time,"I tell myself, "it'll all come together." But you know how it feels waiting. Long and drawn out, but we make our ways through life and we don't have to be alone.