all. my. fault. - genshin angst

it was my fault (chiscara)

The day was getting darker, and scara wasn't getting any better. Childe was pacing back and forth infront of the room where scara was being treated. He couldn't bear not being able to see what was happening. He didn't want his friend to be in pain, it hurt childe to even think about it. Childe sat beside the door all night, staying awake just to see scara.

He went through many episodes worth of tears, screaming, and breaking down. He put himself to blame for what had happened even if it wasn't his fault. He wouldn't dare eat, only a glass of water every hour. He even forgot that he himself was bruised.

The medical team finally came out of the room after 18 hours had passed since the incident. Childe got up and rushed into the room to see scara, only to find him sleeping silently. Childe walked over to him slowly and sat down. He held scaras hand, gazing at him with teary eyes. He put scaras hand to his head.

"I'm sorry.. I wasn't being careful.This is all my fault. This was never supposed to happen."

Childe stayed in scaras room overnight. sleeping on a chair. Signora came in to put a blanket on him. She couldnt help but feel sorry for him. She knows exactly what he's about to go through. Days passed, and scara never woke up. Childe brought flowers every day and tons of letters. Each day got worse and worse, quieter and quieter.

One night Childe locked himself in his room. He walked around and started to smash stuff like pottery, or plates. He screamed his heart out. He was filled with hatred. He finally sat down on the floor and leaned against the door, sobbing. Weeks on now, and there was no hope left. Scara was on his deathbed. Childe entered scaras room one last time.

He sat down beside him and hugged him, tightly. He cried into his shoulder. An arm came around Childes back, weakly hugging him. He looked up to see scara looking at him with tears in his eyes. Childe was in shock. He didn't know what to say. As for scara, he had many things to say. Instead of saying it all, he only said these words.

"Childe.. it's not your fault. You can't go back and change things. It's alright."

Scara carresed Childes cheek with a pale look on his face.

"Now, let me rest.."

Childe looked at scara as he put his arm down.

"Wait... wait no.."

Childes voice broke into tears.

"I.. thank you."

Scara smiled for the first time in his life, and it was his last breath. Childe stared blankly. He just stood there. Shivering. The doctors came running in and Childe backed up slowly and left. He went outside, staring at the ground.

He ran. He ran so fast. He ran all the way to the end of a cliff. The grass brushing against him and the wind in his face. He got to the top of the cliff and shouted.

"I LOVE YOU"

He panted heavily, and screamed again

"AND IM SO, SO SORRY... BUT I LOVE YOU.."

He dropped to his knees and screamed. Finally. He got it off his chest, but at what cost? A cold breeze touched his hand as a sakura bloom floated to the ground.

It was him.

His soul, at peace.

Childe picked up the sakura bloom and whispered I love you one last time.