I don't wanna fall in love again...

Double date

Madhav's POV

It's been 1 week since I talked to Pooja but I see her every day from afar. Yes, I became a stalker, and I am not proud of it, after college, I come to her office and waits outside in my car to get a glimpse of her. I don't know how, but seeing her calms me down. Mentally or physically I never depended on anyone but it is changing, I am changing, my arrogance, my selfishness, my ego... I am letting all of them go for this one girl who doesn't even care about me.

How can this happen? Is this love? Am I obsessing over her? How long it will last?

I wanted to hear her voice, I wanted to inhale her sweet smell, I wanted to touch her... But I can't, I am no one to her, she will never accept me...

This rejection...  It's getting worse, but I have to let this go, I have to let her go. A single kiss can't tie us together... A single kiss can't make her fall in love with me... A single kiss can't make me this weak...

One last glimpse of you Pooja, then I am out of your life... You will not let go of your past and I can't let go of my career for someone who will never let go of her past...

Pooja's POV

It's been 1 week since I quarreled with Drishya and Madhav. I am selfish I know, I wanted to protect myself and I did. But was that worth the loss I had? No, it wasn't...

Drishya... She was a part of my life, she was the only person I ever trusted other than my parents. And I pushed her away from me.

Madhav... The only man who could make me weak in every way, who makes my mind and body burn for him, who made me realize what I want. I pushed him away too.

My parents have taken my words seriously and they are planning my wedding, I don't know what to do, I should stop this, but I am not doing that. The day after tomorrow is my bride seeing, what am I gonna do, I don't know. I wanted to call Drishya, I wanted to say how sorry I am... But I don't think she will answer my calls or she will ever talk to me again.

I wanted to see Madhav too, for the last time, whatever we had, it is going to end now. All those feelings... It has to end, I can't love anyone again, I can't entrust my heart to anyone again... And now I am going to get married, I don't even know who that person is... I don't know how am I going to be a wife... Without loving that person how am I going to be in a relationship?

I need to stop all these thoughts, this is for my parents, I worried them too much, but not anymore. If they are happy with this relationship, then I have to try it for them.

"Bye Priya, I am leaving now, I have to go shopping," I said to my colleague while packing my things from my office table.

"Shopping?" She asked raising her head from the monitor.

"Yeah... There is function." I said with a tight smile.

"Oh, do you want any help?"

"No, I will manage, bye see you tomorrow," I said waving my hands.

"Byee, call me if you need any help."

"Sure thing."

I inhaled deeply when I got out of the office, "Should I call Drishya? I should try." I mumbled chewing my lips in worry and dialed her number but on the second ring, she cut the call.

"I knew it, she will never talk to me again, you deserve it Pooja, now be your own and fuck up your life." I throw my phone into my bag angrily and walked to the mall not bothering to take the bus. I need some air, walking will help me clear my mind.

After 20 minutes, I stood outside the mall looking at the entrance. "You need to do this for your parents," I told this over and over and went inside.

"What do you want mam?" Asked a staff when I entered the clothing shop.