Outlasting Bitterness

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven

Days passed since that night and Parker and I are still hanging out, and no I haven't said yes to being his girlfriend yet. I mean-fake girlfriend.

I wanted to see him beg, since he made me beg when I asked for oreos.

Oreos are life.

And he made me beg for it! I never had to beg for food! Ever! I always get what I want, not that I was spoiled or anything.

But my dad and my brothers always treat me like a princess, I don't really take advantage of it that much, but when it comes to things that I really need or want I would simply ask for it and they would give it without hesitation.

So now, its another week in school.

Lesson Number One starts today, and I bought myself a notebook, to report all my progress everyday.

I think I'll call him Sin.

I know weird name right? But I kinda like it.

I decided to write on Sin while I wait for Parker to come.

Lesson Number One: Day One

Kissing Lessons with The Jerk progress: Still in Lesson number one.

We were stuck in Lesson number one, which was weird since I already know how to kiss, but he told me that kissing wasn't even Lesson number One.

Therefore, that kiss we had at the beach was like a pop quiz, the real Lesson Number One is teaching me to become more confident. Boosting my self-esteem and all that.

I mean, I have great friends in the Swimming World, especially during competitions, but he wanted me to have a new set of friends, and a few admirers.

I don't know how I would even have admirers, I wasn't even pretty. I was average.

Atleast that's what I think I'am, I think I get what Parker said about me needing to boost my self-esteem now.

And he even made me promise to not fall in love with him!

I mean Sin, you know me right? I would never like a guy like him, let alone fall in love with him.

I mean sure my heart skips a beat whenever he and I are in the same room, or I blush whenever he compliments me, or the way butterflies suddenly errupt in my stomach when he calls me pet names, or how when he kisses me the whole world just stops.

But I guess those were just new to me you know? I mean, I have never ever felt that way with Ron, and we've been together for a year.

So yeah, its all just probably new to me.

I'll continue talking to you later Sin, bye!

It was a horrible day at school today, Heather was glaring at me every chance she gets.

Zeisha is now part of the Wannabe's and Aubrey is Ron's girlfriend. I mean, didn't she even hear about Zeisha having sex with Ron?! Its like nothing even happened.

They were all so happy with Zeisha, they were all buddy buddy at the Center table in the Cafeteria.

While I on the other hand was sitting with my teammates in swimming which were all just as popular as the wannabe's but not that much.

And guess what? Our table was just in front of the wannabe's table.

Which means Heather and all the other Wannabe's are just beside us. Talking animatedly about boys and clothes and being "Daddy's Little Princess".