Outlasting Bitterness

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty

A Few Weeks Later

It's been a few weeks now, and I'm glad that my swim practices are keeping me busy. Finals is just a week away and with school, swim practices and review for finals its been a good thing because it gives me less time to think about my breaking heart.

I tried to act like my usual self around people, but I guess you can't really fake what your heart is actually feeling.

Of course Parker has been trying to get me talk to him since our last encounter but I just pretend I don't see him when we cross paths in the hallways or at the gym, and I pretend not to hear him when he calls out to me. He tried to leave notes in my locker but I throw it away before I can even read it.

I know Harley is starting to notice something, and it's just not her it's probably the whole school of course there are rumors about us some people even said that I was pregnant that's why Parker "broke up" with me.

But the stupid part is that if I was pregnant I wouldn't be swimming my ass off.

Jane she has been trying to make me jealous because she was always with Parker.

And maybe because they're a thing now. But why the hell would I care right?

"Louise? Are you even listening to me?" Harley was waving her hand in front of my face.

I shook my head, as if the thoughts would go away with it. It didn't though, "What? Sorry. I was thinking about something."

She looked disappointed, "Look, Loui I know that something is bothering you. And I'm always going to be here for you. So please just tell me what's wrong."

"I know Har and I thank you for that, but I just- I don't really want to talk about it right now okay?"

She sighed, "Well, I can't really force you to tell me anything. But I know it's about Parker."

I looked up at her. Shocked, how'd she know?

Well, duh. Of course she would know practically the whole school can see through your happy façade.

I shook my head, "No, silly of course it's not about Parker."

"You suck at lying Louise." She sighed. "Fine, I won't force you to say anything to me because I know that you're still not ready to do so. And its okay."

I sighed a breath of relief, "Thanks for understanding Harley. It really means a lot to me. And I promise I'll tell you as soon as I feel comfortable around it."

She hugged me.

It was exactly what I needed at that moment, because I saw Parker and Jane walking down the hallway holding hands.

Parker must have noticed me look at them, because when he met my eyes it was as if he was finally realizing what was happening, like he was dead and was now awake.

He quickly let go of Jane's hand while still locking eyes with mine. He looked like he wanted to approach me.

I backed away slowly. Shaking my head, I can't talk to him right now. But he simply walked towards me with a determined look.

"Louise,"

"Parker,"

He closed his eyes and sighed, he only does that when he's nervous. "I need to talk to you. Please."