Not proof read...
Felix almost left the hospital bedroom a second time. He actually made it to the door again before stopping. Despite how changbin has treated him in the past he doesn't deserve to be left alone.
So, Felix stayed. As soon as changbin had lay back down he was straight asleep. Although he did look a bit less troubled than before.
Looking at him now it was obvious the bruises under his eyes weren't from today. Clearly he hadn't slept for a while. Felix did feel sorry for him.
Changbin had also been distancing himself, obviously because of him. When he wakes up Felix is definitely going to try and set things straight, maybe become friends once again.
He was brought out of his thoughts by a quiet sniffle. Turning his head back to look at changbin he had one thought:
Changbin is actually quite cute...
"Ahhhh" Felix's cheeks turned a light pink as he squealed quietly. He tapped his hands over his cheeks to try and get them to cool down.
Thinking about it now, changbin was somewhat his type. Dark hair, muscles and serious disposition but with a bit of a soft side. Or well, maybe he doesn't quite have a soft side but maybe he does? Felix just is yet to see it.
It was confusing, the way Felix felt like this. Changbin has only treated him poorly and this is how he reacts to seeing a different side of him once.
"What are you thinking about?" A soft voice called from the direction of the bed.
Felix jumped, instantly turning to face the source.
Changbins eyes were open, but he hadn't moved at all. He was simply side eyeing Felix.
"Um well-" Felix blushed, the sudden attention extremly overwhelming. "You're just...different when your injured..."
The man frowned slightly, running a hand through his soft dark hair. Felix fidgeted at the prolonged silence.
"I feel...I have been unfair to you."
Understatement of the century
"No you haven't...its me who-" Felix stuttered out but was gently interrupted.
"Felix- i- I know this is probably obvious, but I don't do well with new people." Changbin sighed, holding his hand out for Felix to take. He felt a small jolt when their skin touched a slight blush began to colour his cheeks. "I find it difficult to control my anger, and I feel I've acted poorly towards you."
Felix took a moment to really think about what changbin was saying. Their conversations until now have gone terribly poorly, while this isn't quite an apology its something.
"I see." Felix mumbled, gently squeezing changbins hand before placing it back down onto the bed.
Changbin nodded turning away to face the window, it was getting late.
There was a quiet lull in the conversation until Felix spoke again:
"Maybe we could start again? You can start hanging out more with your group again and we can be more civil?" Felix squinted slightly in preparation of rejection.
"Our group, you mean Felix." Changbing smiled, it looked slightly forced like he didn't smile often. But it was sweet and brought felixs blush back at a violent ferocity.
"So thats a yes then?" Felix let himself smile. If his eyes had been open he would have noticed Changbins eyes widen and cheeks go a little bit pink. But he didn't.
"Yes Felix." Changbin was quick to compose himself. "I'll try...I've been unfair to you and I need to be better."
"I'll try too, I shouldn't have gotten angry when I knew you were upset. I can see how you might have felt that I was replacing you, and taking all the attention of the group for myself."
"I know thats not your fault Felix, I realised that since I had a lot of time to think." Changbin mumbled, picking at a stray thread of the hospital blanket.
"I don't really know why they act like that." Felix laughed awkwardly.
"I mean why wouldn't they." Changbin shrugged, startling Felix when he seemed to realise what he said by gasping loudly. "Ignore that."
"What do you mean 'why wouldn't they'?" Felix questioned.
"It means your likeable, Felix." Changbin snapped.
Felix jumped for the second time while changbin looked upset at himself. Neither spoke for a moment.
"So...how did you get into a fight?"
Changbin paused for a moment going over felixs words, seeming to decide whether to tell the truth or not.
"It was because of you."
Surprise I'm back. And boy do I have some things to say.
So this took a while because motivation went down the toilet but I flushed it back up.
On Sunday I started reading 50 shades of grey and finished it yesterday. Oml its kinky as fuck wth. Ana blushes as much as Felix does lmao (but I'm deffo not relating student council Felix to her jesus)
Does anyone else find 21 and 28 age gap a bit weird? Especially how strange Christian is and how naive ana is? I dunno i genuinely would love to hear anyone who's read/seen its opinions.
Also the tess of the d'urbervilles comparisons freaked me out, if anyone's read that you'll know why.
Anyway aside from 50 shades I fell off a treadmill yesterday, broke a bin and dislocated my knee in the process. That gave me no excuse not to write since I cant walk well.
Ok that's all bye!
