PARALYZED: Us Against The World

-Seven

We submitted or homework from the other day, surely enough I did well. I scored really high, the highest in class. Esther did great also cause I assisted her with hers but we made few changes in her work. We wouldn't want anyone saying she copied from me; we were seatmates after all so she having the same stuff written in her note book would raise suspicion.

I was the only student in class who scored a complete mark, then followed by Esther and then who ever followed.

I knew my grade performance was beginning to get on some people's nerve.

Ann for sure I was beginning to feel insecure about no longer being the smartest kid in class, I wasn't saying I was the smartest kid but, the look on her face as she heard me tell Esther my score gave her away. While a few marvelled about how I did well in the homework because of how great I scored, a few felt annoyed.

I wouldn't want enemies, at least not at this point in my life, I was still amongst the weak that I knew.

James and his guys were really happy for me, they wanted me to tutor them later. The thought of being their tutor excited me a bit actually.

A lot seemed to be happening right now but I still knew I was still the new kid in a wheelchair.

We had an interactive class and I wasted no time to display my intelligence when need be.

**"**

School was fun for sure but it didn't actually end the way I expected.

When Eunice came around, she really made me feel bad by the words she said, it reminded me of who I really was.

Florence was one of her girls. One could say they where considered the cool girls in class.

I stayed at my usual spot waiting for mom, Marcus went off to the play ground to play with his friends, I stayed there feeling completely alone.

I just sat where I was watching the whole scenario reply in my head. I was an overthinker by nature so I literally couldn't just get what ever she said out of my mind just like that.

"Hmm." She started her talk with he humming giving this awful look of displeasure.

"Hi." I tried not to pay attention to the look on her face, acting all nice.

I knew she was trouble, big time trouble.

"You know I just want to say great job with all you've been doing," I tried to deceive myself that she meant this but I knew she didn't.

"But you know, don't mind everyone coz they're trying to make you feel good with all the applauds, after all, you're crippled and no one would want to make you feel bad." She adds.

"I can't help it but wonder what you're parents actually thought of before bringing you here? They're a lot of special schools for people like you, belong here, you should know this by now."

I was just there, helpless, didn't even say a word, I just allowed her down talk me.

I stayed quiet for the rest of the day. Esther did notice my sudden quietness but they wasn't much she could do, she assumed my quietness was just me being me, another side of me she didn't know.

I remember having a conversation with Dad Steve, the memory seems all too blurry now but I can still remember.

Wasn't sure if self hate or anger was what I was feeling at this point but it reminded me of what Dad Steve once said.

" Don't try to fit in, just stand out by being you, don't fake it. Originality."

" The world won't like you for being you but that's okay, they don't have to like you, as long as you like yourself, that's all that counts."