•☆Monokuma's Special motive☆• [REWRITE]

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☆•Promise•☆

•Kokichi's POV•

"kokichi?"

At the call of my name, i quickly spun around to see Shuichi staring at me.

"hu- Oh Saihara-Chan, what's got you up so late?"

"I could ask you the same thing...I couldn't sleep so I thought I would come grab something to snack on.."

"Oh. Something to.. snack on? I just came down for a glass of water and just to get out of your incredibly borriinngg room!"

"Is that so...do you want me to pour you a glass since I'm going over to the kitchen anyways?"

"uh, yeah sure!" I replied.

As Shuichi walked into the kitchen to grab some water and a...meal for himself I make myself comfy at the nearby table. It was strange being out of our dorms at this hour, to be honest I've never been out this late. The halls were super quiet and it was just me and Saihara-Chan. I fiddled with my nails and peeled the skin on my lips, a habit I've seem to have picked up and can't put down.  As I lifted my head I noticed Shuichi come back holding a glass of water and a banana.

"it's not that much.."

"Is..everything ok Oma-kun?"

"hm? Yep, everything is just perfect! why?" I hoped I sounded convincing.

"U-Um.."

•Shuichi's POV•

I had to stop for a minute, I needed to make sure I said the right thing. There was so much I wanted to say but I just didn't know how to go about it. I forced myself to remember how Kokichi refused to eat and how nothing seemed to fit him anymore. The tired smiles we all received and the way his cheek bones became flush with his skin. The way no one noticed what was going on and that we just pushed him off dismissingly. The thought of neglecting my friend brought tears to my eyes. I hoped I could tell him how I cared for him and how I wanted him to trust me. I wanted.. no... needed to tell him just how much i... loved him.

"I can at least try and get the point across.."

"Heeeyyy! Earth to Saihara! You just going to leave me on a cliff hanger like that!?"

"...Kokichi, are you doing ok, why won't you eat?"

"Huh!? Saihara-Chan I don't know what's gotten into you! Of course I'm eatin-"

"Kokichi please don't lie to me about this! You never eat at dinner and you just seem tired all the time..!"

Kokichi quickly became defensive and denied all my accusations.

"I eat all the time! You just aren't around stupidhead! And I look tired all the time because I'm getting tired of everyone's bullshit! God! What do you know, you barely know me, I'm just fine! Nothings wrong with me!"

"If you ate all the time why won't anything fit you! What about the sticky notes stuck on the walls of your bathroom!? Or are those just a lie too! I want to help you, I want you to feel like everything's going to be ok!"

"That's the thing, nothings ok! I can't do anything without counting calories, my hair is falling out in clumps, I feel sick all the time! Nothings going to be ok.."

His hand flies over his mouth, like he didn't believe that was him speaking.

"Kokichi... I care."

"Yo-you're making all this u-up, you're m-making me say c-c-crazy things..." his voice broke as he spoke and trailed off towards the end. A glassy film formed in his sorry filled eyes.

You could tell he had lost it, his pride, "confidence", care free attitude, all went down the drain. Tears poured down his face and he just couldn't keep it together any longer. He tried letting out an awkward laugh but instead let out a miserable sob. I swore, all I saw was Kokichi sitting in front of me, not the motive. Bound up sadness, frustration and fear were let out as he sobbed into his sleeves.

"...I-Im sorry-" He managed to choke out.

 As I watched him unfold and break down my heart broke. I walked over to him and hugged him not knowing if it would do much...Kokichi sobbed as he described the vulgar things he thought about himself just begging for the resurgence that it was all a lie itself.

It was almost terrifying watching him plead and cry. He cried and cried. Everything just kept building up as the days progressed. The stress from the killing game, the fear, and kokichi's own needs.

Every word he said brought tears to my own eyes.

"Kokichi...look at me please.."

I gently held his shoulders as I thought of the right words to reassure and soothe him.

"You..are not disgusting nor are you ugly, or vile or, hideous or...or any of those vulgar descriptions!...In fact I could only ever think of you as the opposite..and I promise, that is not a lie.."

Kokichi began to sob even more as throughout this miserable killing game those were the kindest words spoken to him.

"Kokichi..I promise, I'll do anything I can to help you.."

I sat there holding Kokichi in my arms as he sobbed. Time passed by as we stayed silent in the dark room, as I still stood holding and comforting him I had looked out the window as the sky had become a bit lighter, hinting that dawn had arrived. Not wanting anyone to accidental walk In on us like this I whispered one last thing to him.

"Kokichi...it's getting brighter outside...would you like to leave and try and get more sleep?"

Kokichi tiredly agreed as we left the kitchen and went back to the dorms. I unlocked kokichi's dorm and we went inside. As I turned around kokichi had already pulled back the covers and laid down in a comfortable position. I kicked off my slippers and sat next to him on the bed, rubbing his back until he had come to peace. My eyes felt heavy and I think I started drifting off, escaping this miserable hell once more.

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