"He's not worth it" pt. 2

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by mxltifan_stories

by mxltifan_stories

Songs to listen to:
Cardigan- Taylor Swift
Betty- Taylor Swift
This Love (Taylor's Version)- Taylor Swift
I wish you would- Taylor Swift
Water under the bridge- Adele
Two ghosts- Harry Styles

"Am I interrupting something?" Oh god. Please don't be...

"Eddie what do you want?" I asked. Trying to act like part of me wasn't happy to see his face. Although, seeing him just brought everything back at once. All the nights running wild through Hawkins. Getting high in his trailer or in the woods. Even if some of of it was wrong, I didn't care. I miss it.

"I don't want anything. I just came out here thinking no one would be out here. Can I sit?" He replied. Gesturing towards the chair. I nodded. What's the worst that could happen?

"So umm... how have you been?" He tried to make conversation. Kind awkward but not as awkward as I thought but it would be.

"Good enough I guess. I would ask you how you are but... judging by what I saw in the cafeteria earlier, you seem to be doing just fine." It slipped out. Uh oh. His face went somewhat hard.

"Listen (Y/N), if this is your way of saying I've moved on. It's not true." He said gently. I didn't know what to think of that statement.

"Eddie, you don't have to just say that to make me feel better okay? I'm a big girl I can deal with it-." I started. He cut me off by saying.

"I'm not lying (Y/N), you don't think I think about you everyday? How stupid I was to let you go? No, I do think about it." He says. Oh my god, does Eddie still care?

"Eddie I-." I was speechless. What do I say tot hat? Do I confess to loving him still? Or do I just play it cool? I wanted to confess. But I wasn't brave enough for that. I just froze and stared at him.

"I still love you (Y/N)... and I can never forgive myself for hurting you the way I did, and I don't expect you too." he said quietly cupping my face with his hands.

"Eddie... I love you too." I said just staring into his eyes. Then all of a sudden my lips were on his. Did that ever feel nice. It lasted a while. But that's okay. Because for the last month, that's all I wanted.