Eddie Munson one shots <3

Don't Go

Songs to listen to:
Say don't go- Taylor Swift
Forever Winter- Taylor Swift
ICU- Phoebe Bridgers
Nobody Gets Me- SZA
Love Of My Life- Queen
Do Me a Favour- Arctic Monkeys
Waiting Room- Phoebe Bridgers
You're losing me- Taylor Swift

!!!! THIS IS INSPIRED BY THE SONG "Say Don't Go" BY TAYLOR SWIFT!!!!

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I step out of my car, I am in the same place as always, the trailer park. Everything is the same, the mild scent of cigarettes, the chill in the air, but one thing is different. This time, I'm not excited to be here.

Eddie has been strange lately. He's been extremely distant and uncommunicative. It's like someone has been slowly draining his soul from his body. The eyes that once looked at me with so much love, now stare at me almost blankly. And the worst part is, I have no clue why. So I came to the trailer park to find the answers.

I walk up to the door, swallowing the lump in my throat as I knock on the door. I hear light footsteps walking towards the door. And second later, the door opens. I'm greeted by Eddie, but not the same one as before.

"Hey." He says, stepping aside to let me in. I walk in and for the first time ever, I don't feel at home. But in a desperate attempt to play it somewhat cool, I walk up and wrap my arms around his waist. But am met with nothing. Sweet nothing. But I wasn't giving up there.

"How was your day?" I ask, I put on my usual smile, although this time it was fake. "Good." He says. Gently removing my arms from his waist as he sits down on the couch.

"Just good?" I ask, desperately trying to engage. "Mhm" he murmurs. And at that moment, I gave up. This was so unusual. He was always so full of life, now he's fading, and I don't like it. So doing what I hate most, I decide to confront.

"Eddie what's going on?" I say quietly. Trying to hold myself together. Even though deep down, I was fearing my worst nightmare was coming true.

He puts his face in his hands, rubbing his eyes. "Nothing is wrong (Y/N)" he spits out in a mildly irritated tone. Which causes me to retract slightly. My initial instinct was to drop the conversation and continue as normal. But no, this was too important, HE was too important.

"No Eddie I know you're mot telling the truth, you've been acting different." I asserted. My voice beginning to grow desperate.

"For fuck sake (Y/N) leave it alone." He whines frustratedly. "No Eddie I will not fucking leave it alone because YOU are not being you and I actually want to FIX it instead of running away from it. So either tell me what's going on or I'm leaving." I say, slightly raising my voice, trying to keep a tough demeanour, when on the inside, I was breaking. What I was met with in return shocked me.

"Ok leave then" he says bluntly, staring straight ahead at the wall. My heart tears a little bit more. What is wrong with him? He's never spoken to me like this. Part of me wants to get up and leave, but I don't.

"If you're gonna be an asshole you could at least look me in the eyes. Look me in the eyes and tell me what you want to say because I KNOW you want to say something because you never acted like this before." I say, my voice breaking more and more with every word. "Stay strong" I tell myself.

He turns his head, looking me dead in the eyes. And meets my request. Saying what he wanted to say. But, I knew from his eyes, exactly what he wanted to say before a word left his mouth.

  "I'm done. I don't want to be in this relationship anymore." He says, without an ounce of empathy or emotion. My heart drops. My worst fear was coming true, I was losing him. He looks back ahead at the wall.

"I don't understand." I say, my voice breaking into a cry after a long pause, my lips quivering and my eyes welling up with tears. "Eddie, whatever is going on, I want to fix it. Please Eddie, I don't want to lose you. I love you." I've said "I love you" lots of times.  But tonight, was the first time I was met with absolutely no response. No, there is no way. So I say it again. "Eddie I love you" I state once more.

  He looks back into my eyes. And this time, he almost looks sad. And then I realized, he wasn't going to say it back, and that's what it was, he just didn't love me any more. And that realization  hurt more than anything else could. I turn away from him. And put my head in my hands, crying like there's no tomorrow. We don't speak, we don't even look at each other. Until he speaks up.

  "(Y/N) I'm sorry. I jus-" He whispered. His words cutting through my heart. I didn't want to believe it. I cut him off before he can finish his sentence.

  "Did I do something? Is that why you're doing this? Because of me?" I choke. Unable to reel my emotions back in.

  "No (Y/N) I- I don't-" he trails off.

  "So you're telling me you're gonna tell me we're over when you can't even fucking explain it to me? Don't you think I at least deserve that?" I say, growing angrier by the second. My voice develops into a light shout. He goes silent. I sit and think for a moment. Then I make the hardest decision I've ever been faced with. I decided to give him an ultimatum.

"Ok, fine, you want me to leave? I'll leave. The decision is yours. If you want me to stay, I will stay. But if you want me to leave, I will. But... the second I walk out that door, is the last time you will hear from me, because I will not come back." I say, taking my keys and walking towards the door, and putting my hand on the door handle, "so what's it gonna be?" I ask.

  He pauses, and so does my heart. I waited for the answer. The answer that would either end us, or bring us back together. And even though I was giving him the choice, not a single part of me wanted to walk out. 'Come on, say don't go." I think to myself.

  Eddie looks at me, a tear rolls down his cheek, the first exhibition of emotion I've seen form him all week. "I think this is for the better." He says, his voice quivering slightly. And with that, my heart completely shatters. Into a million tiny pieces.

"Okay..." I whisper, I feel the tears coming in quick. Turning the handle one last time. The cool air hits my face as I open the door. I look back, and see Eddie watching attentively. And for a brief moment, I see every memory, every late night, every fight, every makeup, ever kiss, every sweet moment, all on his face. I still waited for him to say something, anything, but he didn't. He stayed silent. And with that, I close the door and go home.