Remembering Sunday: All Time Low

College

* the end of summer *

I am leaving in a few days to go to college. I am going to drive to Washington State and attend The University of Washington to advance my skills in creative writing. From their website it looks gigantic and so beautiful and I am so nervous. I am excited to start a new chapter of my life. I am graduated from high school and moving to a new state all by myself. I'm not going to have nay of the guys to be there to keep me company or be there with me to protect me from everything.

The whole summer feels as though it has passed by in such a huge blur. The guys and I have come home from the beach and just a little while later they left for tour. They have been gone ever since and are coming home right after I should be arriving in Washington.

I am beyond bummed that I will not be able to see the guys before I leave and the only times I will ever going to be seeing the guys or even my family is going to be when I come home for the holidays or maybe if the guys would stop by while they are on tour. It is heart breaking to have to leave my mom and my grandma and Lisa and the guys and my dad.

As far as my dad is concerned, he has been admitted into a rehab facility and all I know is that he is on his way to recovery. He hasn't reached out to me and I haven't reached out to him. One day I would like to patch things up between the two of us and have a relationship with him.

My grandma and my mom are currently the light of my life. I finally realized how important family really is. Ever since the guys left for tour and I have been working really long shifts at the restaurant, my family makes everything seem like everything is perfectly fine. They make me laugh and make me so happy. They are the hardest thing to leave here. Although my grandma has been doing good I am always so afraid that she won't be here when I get back for Thanksgiving.

My grandma is always here for me and she would always watch me as I was growing up and to know that she doesn't have too much time left on this earth kills me. She and my mom have secretly been saving up money to send me to college and help me out with an apartment. When they told me about it, I just broke down and cried.

All day I have been packing my things up in my rom to get ready for the college life. We have drove up to Seattle to go find a small studio apartment and successfully found one and moved some things into the apartment that I didn't really such as small desk some clothes, and a little bit of food for when I first arrive.

It really has been pretty stressful trying o get everything together. I don't know what I really need to bring or what I don't need to bring but my mom and grandma have been very helpful when it has been coming to everything.

I'm excited to start a new portion of my life and meet new people.

* Hope you guys like the new chapter. I am sorry for the hiatus.. again. The attached picture is what I imagine Luna to be like *