An Early Morning Dream | KSJ

14: Purple 💜

~[07/01/2023]

Kim Seok Jin's POV:

"I want you to stop me, Ae Rinaa!" I beg her as I slowly realize what I am doing. I don't even know if I'll be alive the next morning to see the sunrise. How can I trap someone in my prison-like life? 

I cannot. 

I need to get away from this girl. 

I need her to go.

Please leave my life, Lee Ae Rin.

But it is getting tough every moment I spend with her. There is only one way, if she ignores me, if she makes me stop, if she leaves me.

"I want you to stop me else, this freaking heart won't let me stop," I say but I can see her eyes expressing something she probably never did. I can see her heart growing feelings for me and that's something I'm afraid of. 

What did you do to her Kim SeokJin?

Why did you do that?

It's my fault.

"Wae?"

Wae? Don't even ask me anything because it is tough for me too.

Trust me Ae Rin, you don't want to know the reason. 

Curious to know my sudden rejection, she continues to talk to me. "Don't try to act all innocent."

I am acting innocent? Do you really think that I am acting?

Well, you probably are the first woman in my life to read me. Even my mom never knew what goes in my mind. 

Kim Seok Jin. You need to act innocent. Innocent. INNOCENT.

And this eight-letter word rings something in my head that I am completely taken away...

"Why do you always have to roam with innocent kids and make me kidnap you? " These Lee So Hyun's words ring in my head like that emergency alarm. It is driving me insane. It doesn't stop. But I'm sure it will make me stop doing what I am trying to stop.

"You have. You have a lot, my boy. You have the lives of your friends. What was their name... Ummm, Jimin, Taehyung, Ae Rin--"

No! I cannot let that man get near any of my friends. If he gets to know about me and Ae Rin, he'll use her to make me do things I never want to. He can harm her and I cannot let that happen.

As I lose my mind over a gangster's words, I feel Ae Rin's finger brushing my face and gently pulling me to...

I need to get her out of my life. 

So swoosh myself away from her. I don't know what to do. I feel like I committed a crime and all I can do is surrender myself to her with my head tilted down. 

My brain right now is screaming so loud that I cannot hear anything else: I told you not to do anything. Now, do you have any options? Apologize. Tell her it is your fault. 

I guess, this time I should listen to it. 

"I know. I know you are not interested in me. I did wrong to you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry Ae Rinaa! I'm really really sorry..." 

I.

Try.

To.

Get.

Out.

Of.

Her.

Life.