Jay White
Summer was going pretty well aside from me struggling with my mental health. Brandon was helping me through it and I loved that. For once in my life I felt important to somebody, I had no friends because we all went our separate ways. Plus my mom wasn't as supportive as I needed her to be so the only person who was there for me was Brandon. Today we were going to the boardwalk at Santa Cruz and honestly I was excited. Anything we did together I cherished it because Brandon was the best boyfriend I had so far.
I got ready to go because Brandon would be here in 15 minutes. While I was getting dressed my mom came in my room.
"Where you going?" She asked
"To the boardwalk" I responded dryly
"Well be back before 8 because I'm making dinner and I want you to be here" she said
"But m..." I started to say
"No buts, before 8" she walked out my room and I rolled my eyes.
Out of all days she wanted me to be home before 8 o'clock like girl what the fuck?
I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down because today was going to be a good day. I wasn't going to let her ruin it for me. I sprayed some perfume on me and Brandon sent me a text telling me he was outside.
I flew out the house because I was ready to get from around my momma. I got into the car and Brandon looked and smelled so good.
"What's up? How you feeling?" He asked me
"I'm okay for the most part, my mom just pissed me off but I'm not going to let that distract me from a good time" I replied
"What happened?" He questioned
"It's not important, let's just go" I told him
"We not leaving until you tell me what happened. Just tell me because I know it's weighing on your conscience."
This is exactly why I loved him because he cared about my mental. I was sure that he liked me physically but he actually gave a fuck about my thoughts and feelings and that was rare in men.
"She wants me to be back before 8 o'clock and she knows I'm going to the boardwalk like what the hell? It's so annoying, I'm getting so fed up with her"
"Listen, don't let her bother you. We gon go out and have a good time and Ima try to have you back before 8pm" he said that with a small smirk so I knew I wasn't going to be back before it was time.
We got to the boardwalk and was getting on damn near every fast ride they had. It was exciting and fun when I was with him I felt alive and like I had a purpose to live. I knew you wasn't suppose to rely on other ppl for your happiness but it felt like Brandon was the remedy of my all my problems. It was a natural high.
We took a break from riding the rides and decided to get something to eat and drink.
"Ooouuu the Ferris wheel, we def gotta get on that after we done eating" he said
"You would wanna get on that" I laughed and said
"Man whatever just hurry up before the line get long"
"Damn bae hold on" I finished my food and he practically dragged me to the Ferris wheel line.
After waiting in line we were finally getting on, the ride was slow of course and this moment was used for talking or kissing or both.
"You know I love you right? Just everything about you, your features, your personality, your stank ass attitude and even how you dress. I never felt like this for nobody else, every other dude just took advantage of me. Made me cry in the dark, couldn't eat sometimes, lost money and of course I wasted my time. Im grateful to have you and I'm glad I met you when I did because if I met you when I was messed up I wouldn't be able to love you like I am now. It took a million heartbreaks for one true love and that true love is you. I believe that we need each other and if we don't last forever I hope we can manage a healthy friendship."
His words made me melt, it felt good to hear this because nobody has ever expressed their feelings like this to me. Niggas always wanted one thing from me and that was nothing but lust. Nobody wanted to love me, that's until I met Brandon.
"Awww that was so sweet Brandon, I love you too. You're the only dude that has really had true and pure feelings toward me. You make me feel important and seen, I don't have to pretend around you or act crazy toward you because you make me feel sane. You complete me baby."
He didn't respond he just pulled me in for a kiss on the lips. The kiss was long and passionate and filled with a ton of love.
