Nani Owens
Monday
After what happened to Drew I continued to blame myself. My brother comforted me but it didn't make me feel less guilty. It wasn't my fault but my brain couldn't register that. So many things was all happening at once, it was exhausting and I was over it. I just wanted to concentrate on my relationship with Jaylin and forget about everything else but it was hard as fuck to block out reality.
This morning I found myself not wanting to get out of bed, I was tired mentally and physically but I got up for school anyway. Plus it was my girl Deauni first day back so of course I had to be there. When I got to school she was the first person I saw, I immediately ran up to her and hugged her. It was good to see her back on her feet and kid free for the first time in a while.
"Hey bitch, who watching the babies?" I asked her
"My momma, she was off today so she said she'll watch them for me. I'm kind of glad to be at school because those kids drive me crazy" she said
"I feel that, having twins in high school is a lot. I'm proud of you though, you doing this mommy shit despite of everything" I told her
"Awww thank you Nani, look at you being nice" she joked
"Girl fuck you okay?" I laughed and said
"Where everybody else at? May? Jay?" She asked me
"I don't know honestly, I haven't seen them since that day at the hospital" I replied
"What the hell? That's sad. We used to all be so close, now look? Ughhh but anyway, I'm going to class. I'll see you at lunch"
We both went our separate ways and I went to my first period of the day, I was in no mood to be bothered with class but a bitch had to graduate.
As I sat in class I thought about what Deauni said, we were all coming apart. Our bond with each other was so strong but now we barely was around each other and barely talked anymore. Apart of me wish I would've told Deauni about what happened with Drew and how I felt but at the same time I didn't want to talk about it. I wanted to forget about it and I knew she would've comforted me but things were different now. As the day passed by it was finally time for lunch, I was curious on how this was going to go because we haven't talked in awhile and we were sitting at different tables since Deauni been gone. She was back now though so maybe she was going to be the glue to us.
When I walked in the cafeteria, I saw Deauni sitting at our default table and she waved me over. I walked to the table and sat down across from her.
"Girl where the hell you was going? You know we always sit here" she said
"We don't sit here anymore Dee..." I told her in a serious tone
"Why? Y'all changed the table?" She asked oblivious
"No. We sit at different tables" I responded
"What? Why? Something happened when I was in the hospital?" She asked
"Deauni, after that night of the shooting a lot of things changed. It effected everyone different, May lost Kendall and she hasn't been the same since and Jay is traumatized" I told her
"And you? Are you okay? What happened that night Nani?" She asked me concerned
"Im fine...you're still here and so are May and Jay. That night took apart of me but you know I'm tough and it's nothing I can't handle" I think she could tell I was holding back because she started pressing me
"Nani...you don't have to be strong all the time. It's okay if that night changed you, I know it effected us different. Shiiiiiddd my ass was in a damn coma for how long? I was trying to be captain save my man now look? Just a mess but in all seriousness Nani you know I'm here for you. You don't have to always be tough sis, let that hurt out."
"You right. Drew is in the hospital again, I blame myself because the night he crashed his car damn near killing his self he was at my house. I cursed him out real bad and now look? He barely breathing...I feel so bad bruh like I feel like it's my fault." I confided in her
"It's not your fault though, Drew hurting and besides you wasn't the one driving that night." She said to me
"You right, thank you Dee, I needed that" I hugged her and it got quiet
"Wait...how the fuck he drive anyway?" She asked
We both laughed at her dumb ass comment and just used our phones, that's until Dc walked over to the table.
